i've come to the conclusion...that there are no conclusions

[megallian]

i'm so sick of being tired. im sick of having things on my mind all the time. im sick of everything. i just want to sleep, or go someplace, where none of this exists. i guess that would be sleeping. one of the things i dont do often enough. i had a great day yesterday. i just got really depressed around 4 in the morning, and i was up until 6 am. even then i wasn't tired. i had no energy but i wasn't tired. mentally drained, that's possibly it. i just hid under my sheets for an hour this morning listening to Steel Train and i couldn't even concentrate enough to make sense of anything i believe in. i dont even know what i believe in anymore. maybe i'm just ignorant, or maybe everyone else is.
i need some clarity of thought.

things i never want said to me again: i'm sorry, that sucks, i dont know what to tell you, and goodluck...they just are incincere comments that i'd rather not be told anymore