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[megallian]

i shouldn't be feeling this way after the night i had...but...i just feel like something's missing. it's like...i'm really jealous over other people and it brings me down...like...i got a glimpse of something i've wanted and then remembered it would never happen...
i guess i kind of just know who i could be happy with...not disregarding what i said before, because i really am happy the way i am now..happy with myself. just...uuugh i can't even think of how to put it into words.
there are few people these days who truly make me happy. who just make me think..wow

sorry if this sounds pathetic, i really just need someone to talk to for a little bit. someone to be nice to me for just a day. even if they really dont give a fuck about my problems or how i'm feeling i'm losing touch with everything around me. i just really want a hug from someone..like a real hug. but from a friend to a friend. i want someone to comfort me. i'm feeling so sad and if someone could just be like "hey meg, lets go do something" that would make me feel so much better. a little comfort from a friend.

i'm seriously crying right now and i don't know why i'm getting this upset