fear with consequence, lose with elegance
so i haven't written in this since april. and funny enough my brain is so full i don't know what to write. i'm procrastinating studying/going to work. i work about nine hours today and i don't feel like doing that but i must for i am a lame college student who needs to pay to survive and i am oh so poor. i'm getting my new tattoo soon though which will make a total of...three. i am drained from studying and work and sort of numb to life. i ended my one year relationship and its sort of weird to go back into life after being in such a routine but its good though i fear i may be a whore....hmmm or a flirt. life changes so much in college a few months ago i was planning to move right now and now i'm staying though i'm moving in august to a completely different place than planned. i worry that i keep so busy planning in hopes that i don't think about my actions, i hope that isn't true.....oh and i'm in love and it sucks so bad.