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15 August 2007....15 August 1998. It seems quite weird that upon the ninth anniversary of the Omagh bombings I feel the most affected. I would have thought that it would have been several years earlier when we first got to know the OCYC But it hasnt. Maybe it's because this year has been one of the toughes "soul-searching" years to figure out what's really important to me and what I really want out of life. I think its just the world in general. I have become insensitive to the many deaths, bombs, and atrocities going on in the world, especially Iraq. Partially because, it seems wasteful on me. What's the point of fighting a war that will probably never end. If you conquer Iraq back to democracy and a "proper religion" it will only be time before another Muslim-oriented region will wage a holy war on those who are not Muslim. I don't know, it seems weird because the Omagh bombings actually affected my life and family. I am beyond proud of being Irish and my Irish heritage. I would rather shout from the rooftops that I am Irish and Irish royalty at that before I would let anyone know that I was also German, and that several of my relatives were not only part of the war for the German side during WWII, but also in the SS, which can only mean one thing. I find it sad that after nine years, we as Irishmen, whether still in Ireland, or only Irish by blood, cannot still accept the Northerners and the Southerners and the Protestants and the Catholics for who they are. I once thought that perhaps the IRA had the right idea to use force to get the English out, but when it comes down to it, there are people's lives you are messing with. I could never comprehend why anyone would ever risk that to prove a point to the crown. I am well aware that Colonialism is dead, but it doesnt make sense why people would risk the lives of 'civilians' to make a point. It has never worked in the past, it just gets your name in the paper and a life sentence that you can never get back. Ugggh. I'm sorry if this was severely not understandable. I just needed to get some ranting out after watching a documentary on the IRA last night. UGH.

"Across the bridge of harmony I hear the pipes of peace...a sad refrain that seems to call for argument to cease..."