is everything okay?
i feel worried. i'm not sure why.
kate-are you okay? i miss you. we need to have a little chat sometime. please.
this weekend was a lot of fun. i got to hang out with erin. um, the whole time. it was great. and i got to see krusti. she is pretty much amazing. both of them are. actually, so is kate. but you already knew that.
so this weekend, erin and i went to the lake on saturday at like 11 at night. you know, the usual erin and meg kind of thing to do. we had a good talk on the swings... i miss it. i miss us. i miss summer.
i feel like i am finally growing up. i'm not so sure it's what i want anymore. i have discovered things about life lately, that i wish i hadn't. i want to be 16 again wishing i was 18. i feel like i am losing the "youthful innocense" i had only like 3 months ago. don't get me wrong, it is great being out of the house, but at the same time i miss it. i was so content with what i had when i was at home. i love my parents, and i am so grateful we get along. my mom doesn't ask me where i am going or when i will be back in my room, instead she justs says something like "well, make good decisions" or "be careful, i love you." and if you know my mom, you know that's not really like her to not ask where or what i will be doing. she is still concerned, but she trusts me enough. it's a good and bad thing. gah, i am just weird. whatever.
i like school. i just don't like doing the work. haha :) whateva. i have a test in psych. and fag computer class on wednesday. boo.
i am really happy right now. i have no idea why. really. i wish i knew. maybe it's because howie day is playing right now and i can't help but think about what a beautiful day today was. i hope everyone played outside. i did. duh.
mmm
peace. please.
i was rockin out.
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it's what we do.
i wish i could be more truthful.
things are different, but still good.
"they say time heals everything, but i'm still waiting..."
i want to swing. right now. in mayor's park.
i want to hike up brasstown bald mountain. tomorrow. when it's sunny.
i want to lay in a BIG field across the street from school and just look at the clouds.
that's pretty much it. how is everybody?!