let the truth be told.....
well this weekend was ok....
got trashed like every night...
here we goo...
saterday ralph had said to me that im not ur bf and i prolly will never be ur bf.....ok...fucker....ive only spent the past year with u for what....
then today...me and him had like an hour long convo about it...i finally got the balls and explained myself to him....i told him that i was sick of asking everone and everytime i try to ask him he dont want to talk about it but he finally explain it to me...he said that it has nothing to do with me...that im a great gurl...and that he considers me one of his close friends and that its just that he dont want a girlfriend right now and he enjoys my company....and we talking about it and i started crying .and i tole him that i just need to hear it from him....like i needed some closure ....to know that there will never be an "us"...and that for the first 6 monts i tryed everything but he would never go out with me and i kinda figured out that he would prolly never would and i really really liked him and he asked me if i didnt go into the service cuz of him and told him yeah...cuz i was hoping that there would be something.....and i was crying n stuff and he asked if i was mad cuz i was crying ...i told him no its just that i neeed to hear it from him to give me some closur and that im just really bumed becase to tell the truth i love that guy more than anything...then he was like ehy didnt u ever asked me before??...i told him i tryed but he never wanted to talk about it...and then he was like i cant bring u come like this..cuz i was crying so sat for a min n smoked a bowl and then he told me i looked cute when i cry...gave me a hug and then he left......................
this just sucks really bad cuz i kinda feel like i just waisted a year on him for nothing....but i guess that i can that i made a "good" friend out of the deal....i guess i was just hoping he would tell me that......Te'Amo......
this sucks so bad...and all i can do right now is cry......
got trashed like every night...
here we goo...
saterday ralph had said to me that im not ur bf and i prolly will never be ur bf.....ok...fucker....ive only spent the past year with u for what....
then today...me and him had like an hour long convo about it...i finally got the balls and explained myself to him....i told him that i was sick of asking everone and everytime i try to ask him he dont want to talk about it but he finally explain it to me...he said that it has nothing to do with me...that im a great gurl...and that he considers me one of his close friends and that its just that he dont want a girlfriend right now and he enjoys my company....and we talking about it and i started crying .and i tole him that i just need to hear it from him....like i needed some closure ....to know that there will never be an "us"...and that for the first 6 monts i tryed everything but he would never go out with me and i kinda figured out that he would prolly never would and i really really liked him and he asked me if i didnt go into the service cuz of him and told him yeah...cuz i was hoping that there would be something.....and i was crying n stuff and he asked if i was mad cuz i was crying ...i told him no its just that i neeed to hear it from him to give me some closur and that im just really bumed becase to tell the truth i love that guy more than anything...then he was like ehy didnt u ever asked me before??...i told him i tryed but he never wanted to talk about it...and then he was like i cant bring u come like this..cuz i was crying so sat for a min n smoked a bowl and then he told me i looked cute when i cry...gave me a hug and then he left......................
this just sucks really bad cuz i kinda feel like i just waisted a year on him for nothing....but i guess that i can that i made a "good" friend out of the deal....i guess i was just hoping he would tell me that......Te'Amo......
this sucks so bad...and all i can do right now is cry......