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coming home to three cards from lindsay, one from amy, and one (enhanced with money) from my grandma makes me very happy.
getting a call from a boy who hasnt called all day, despite him arguing that he will and always does, then getting in a fight with him before hanging up for the night and probably the next day even though i desperately NEED to talk to him and have needed to for a while, makes me very unhappy.
im very hurt by the aforementioned boy because of broken promises and newly discovered lies. i want to go home, but he is the only person or thing i have ever considered home, the only person i have ever felt comfortable with in my most vulnerable situations. and he is the only home i am no longer welcome in, no matter how much he denies it.
getting a call from a boy who hasnt called all day, despite him arguing that he will and always does, then getting in a fight with him before hanging up for the night and probably the next day even though i desperately NEED to talk to him and have needed to for a while, makes me very unhappy.
im very hurt by the aforementioned boy because of broken promises and newly discovered lies. i want to go home, but he is the only person or thing i have ever considered home, the only person i have ever felt comfortable with in my most vulnerable situations. and he is the only home i am no longer welcome in, no matter how much he denies it.