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Hey, another update!
Okay so my Christmas in Paris is finished. I had a great time with my parents. Such a great time in fact that my first day back in Lille yesterday was a depression day. I felt majorly depressed, and I never realized how much I dislike being in Lille until I spent a week in Paris. I'm trying to do my best to make the best out of it, but the one thing I was looking forward to is over. Now I only have to look forward to the end. And that's not really the way I wanna live my life, ya know? But I'm back in Lille, and everyone else went somewhere else for the New Year. What does that tell you? How stupid this city is. So I may spend NYE 2009 alone....in my apartment....watching a movie. How LAME! But what else am I supposed to do? It really makes me depressed, and April 30th and the end of my contract cannot come soon enough! And then May 7th in Italy with Ma. That will be the best ever. But then I have to go home, and that signifies the start of another year....bored...and terrible and poor without a job. And it doesn't help that I feel lonely here, like all the time. I wish I knew how to kill this feeling I have.
God sorry for the terribly depressed post. Next one will be better, I promise.
Ciao, Bisous.
Okay so my Christmas in Paris is finished. I had a great time with my parents. Such a great time in fact that my first day back in Lille yesterday was a depression day. I felt majorly depressed, and I never realized how much I dislike being in Lille until I spent a week in Paris. I'm trying to do my best to make the best out of it, but the one thing I was looking forward to is over. Now I only have to look forward to the end. And that's not really the way I wanna live my life, ya know? But I'm back in Lille, and everyone else went somewhere else for the New Year. What does that tell you? How stupid this city is. So I may spend NYE 2009 alone....in my apartment....watching a movie. How LAME! But what else am I supposed to do? It really makes me depressed, and April 30th and the end of my contract cannot come soon enough! And then May 7th in Italy with Ma. That will be the best ever. But then I have to go home, and that signifies the start of another year....bored...and terrible and poor without a job. And it doesn't help that I feel lonely here, like all the time. I wish I knew how to kill this feeling I have.
God sorry for the terribly depressed post. Next one will be better, I promise.
Ciao, Bisous.