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hey all! another update is coming up! i bet you are all so excited.
okay so since the last time i updated.....not a whoooole lot has happened. i heard from peter and apparently hes planning a "get together" for us sometime this week. who knows what these are supposed to mean? i mean maybe we really are just hanging out with nothing, but who knows? i certainly dont. and im sick of the not knowing. i dealt with that whole thing for like two years and so not into another one. so i may just ask him whats up. and then after our first whatever it was, date or not, you know who asked me if i liked peter and said that we would make a good couple. it kind of made me mad, dont even ask me about him. he had his chance, whether hes curious or jealous or whatever...dont even go there. i was in love with him, literally, for like two years. he could have had me whenever he wanted. instead he chose to bullshit around. so, personally, whatever happens between peter and i is none of his business. so there you go.
i guess another fun thing thats happened is i went to daves memorial day bbq. it was pretty fun. we played cornhole...and when i play on the left side of the game i kick butt. haha. jeff was my partner and we won. out of 21 points i scored like 15 of them haha. then we just sat around and talked for the rest of the night. it was pretty fun. im surprised i can be around him without a whole lot of awkwardness considering everything thats gone on between us in the last few months. whatever. im just trying to deal with it one day at a time. thats all that can be done i guess.
the beach is in two weeks! :) they finally told me grandma and shes pretty excited to go, as am i. yay. i hope itll be warm enough to wear my cute clothes and relax on the beach! :)
i guess thats it for now really. ill update more when i actually have something to say.
ciao.
okay so since the last time i updated.....not a whoooole lot has happened. i heard from peter and apparently hes planning a "get together" for us sometime this week. who knows what these are supposed to mean? i mean maybe we really are just hanging out with nothing, but who knows? i certainly dont. and im sick of the not knowing. i dealt with that whole thing for like two years and so not into another one. so i may just ask him whats up. and then after our first whatever it was, date or not, you know who asked me if i liked peter and said that we would make a good couple. it kind of made me mad, dont even ask me about him. he had his chance, whether hes curious or jealous or whatever...dont even go there. i was in love with him, literally, for like two years. he could have had me whenever he wanted. instead he chose to bullshit around. so, personally, whatever happens between peter and i is none of his business. so there you go.
i guess another fun thing thats happened is i went to daves memorial day bbq. it was pretty fun. we played cornhole...and when i play on the left side of the game i kick butt. haha. jeff was my partner and we won. out of 21 points i scored like 15 of them haha. then we just sat around and talked for the rest of the night. it was pretty fun. im surprised i can be around him without a whole lot of awkwardness considering everything thats gone on between us in the last few months. whatever. im just trying to deal with it one day at a time. thats all that can be done i guess.
the beach is in two weeks! :) they finally told me grandma and shes pretty excited to go, as am i. yay. i hope itll be warm enough to wear my cute clothes and relax on the beach! :)
i guess thats it for now really. ill update more when i actually have something to say.
ciao.