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lots of stuff sucks right now. my mom has really been pissin me off lately. she complains too much and i cant stand her. i somehow pulled a muscle in my ribcage and so it hurts every time i breathe. my parents thought i had pnemonia because i had fluid in my lungs but i think its better. i had a swim meet saturday and it was really bad because of the muscle i strained or tore or whatever. i wussed out on one of my events because my dad told me i should rest it and since he is a doctor i listened to him. i felt like such a wimp. i still did my other three events tho. we finally qualified the last relay for state because i dropped like 5 seconds off my time. that is one of the only good things right now. my brothers are assholes, well one of them is at least. they came to my swim meet saturday and matt didnt say anything to me the whole time, didnt even watch me swim. what the hell, he is such a fucking ass. then he left for college and didnt even say goodbye. i didnt even know he was leavin. i guess it is for the better, i dont know why but it makes me not feel so bad when i say that. i cant stand that he doesnt care about me at all. i hear about other ppl being close with their siblings, mine dont even acknowledge my existance. whatever...fuck it.