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Where do I start, well lets see, i'm in love with my co-worker Kim she is 35 and I am 19... the only problem is that she will never tell me her feelings, she has always been that way with everyone and says she doesn't have a heart! I love her more then anything but I just don't know what to do, I never know if she likes me or what, I ask and she won't tell me... everyone keeps telling me it will never work but i'm going to make it work, i've never felt this way about anyone before her, and I never want to feel this way about anyone ever again... I try so hard to accept the person that she is, but it can be so hard for me at times, she leaves me hanging alot, she doesn't want to label us as anything and I hate that! When I ask her if we are "together" she just says well i'm not with anyone else, nor do I want to be... why isn't that enough for me to know, why do I want her to tell me that she is in love with me? What is my obsession with it? I cry myself to sleep many nights thinking about her, I just don't know what to do, she means the world to me, I need to accept her as she is or this will never work, I want/need it to work, she makes me soooo happy, but we don't have enough sex! It's down to like once a month, it's pathetic... :-( I am sooo attracted to her also, but she never really has the time for me, I have to beg her just to let me come over! She tells me all the time that she is selfish and self centered and thats never going to change... she will never be what I really could imagine wanted, but she is and so much more, it's hard to explain, but when I see her I can't wipe the smile off my face, and when she calls I get so happy... I just want to accept her for who she is and be happy that she is in my life, Oh god I hope I can !