i REALLY want to do a documentary of my life at school. i'm even seriously thinking about putting up hidden cameras so that i can use the footage and just fuzz out the kids faces.
i could lose my credential, but i'm tired of this. it's an ineffective system and no one is doing shit about it. it's hurting all of us.
THIS is soooooo true. SO true. i can't believe how i feel so exactly this very way. i have thought this exact thing more times THIS particular year even than in other years, this particular months, as it's just grown and grown... thing is, what i've noticed, is that over my years, "the system" has only seemed to deteriorated so profusely... i strongly feel that it has only exacerbated my medical illnesses.
i've only just begun to realize to the extent of all of this how the worsening of work issues have increased in DIRECT porportion to most of my medical issues!!! holy cow what an awful and horrendous thing to realize.
anyway, i just had the worse friday of this school year. THE WORST.
absolutely awfully. due to one student, i'm spending all morning writing three citations on one student, and as a result, the rest of the class and i had to scrap our spelling test half of the way through... it was awful... it's just i couldn't DO BOTH, and it was highly unfair. and what the kids DID do of the first half, was the WORST ever on a Spelling Test ever... bc they were distracted and traumatized.
In a separate handwritten letter, I documented [again] why this one student is infiltrating what could be a more positive experience for the rest of the students in my class, if only we could have more help with him. And asking whatever has happened with that??? And the couple hours a week I even get an aid she spends all her time policing him for me and NEVER works with any other students all year...
etc. ... It was awful today... everyone was sad and upset, and I couldn't lift them all up this time. They were extra hyper and off to a bad start, and I was in a bad mood, and this letter took up my whole recess break... ugh.
It was one thing after another, all energy on one student.
No administrators all first half of the day. Ann having to go searching for him at one point, and finally Claudia taking him once found. This being the 3rd of three issues.
Anyway.
I do hope things work out for you in the more positive next year. That you will be able to have classes where you can express a more creative side. THIS would do wonders.
I would love it if you could be more regularly happy in this line of work, or in a line of work you'd love more. I love ya, and always want the best for you.
i could lose my credential, but i'm tired of this. it's an ineffective system and no one is doing shit about it. it's hurting all of us.
THIS is soooooo true. SO true. i can't believe how i feel so exactly this very way. i have thought this exact thing more times THIS particular year even than in other years, this particular months, as it's just grown and grown... thing is, what i've noticed, is that over my years, "the system" has only seemed to deteriorated so profusely... i strongly feel that it has only exacerbated my medical illnesses.
i've only just begun to realize to the extent of all of this how the worsening of work issues have increased in DIRECT porportion to most of my medical issues!!! holy cow what an awful and horrendous thing to realize.
anyway, i just had the worse friday of this school year. THE WORST.
absolutely awfully. due to one student, i'm spending all morning writing three citations on one student, and as a result, the rest of the class and i had to scrap our spelling test half of the way through... it was awful... it's just i couldn't DO BOTH, and it was highly unfair. and what the kids DID do of the first half, was the WORST ever on a Spelling Test ever... bc they were distracted and traumatized.
In a separate handwritten letter, I documented [again] why this one student is infiltrating what could be a more positive experience for the rest of the students in my class, if only we could have more help with him. And asking whatever has happened with that??? And the couple hours a week I even get an aid she spends all her time policing him for me and NEVER works with any other students all year...
etc. ... It was awful today... everyone was sad and upset, and I couldn't lift them all up this time. They were extra hyper and off to a bad start, and I was in a bad mood, and this letter took up my whole recess break... ugh.
It was one thing after another, all energy on one student.
No administrators all first half of the day. Ann having to go searching for him at one point, and finally Claudia taking him once found. This being the 3rd of three issues.
Anyway.
I do hope things work out for you in the more positive next year. That you will be able to have classes where you can express a more creative side. THIS would do wonders.
I would love it if you could be more regularly happy in this line of work, or in a line of work you'd love more. I love ya, and always want the best for you.
Hugz and Loves.
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