I don't know how to love

Feb 26, 2005 01:16

Alright, alright. Fine. No, I didn't sleep with Rosier. No, I didn't 'let him' take advantage of me. Yes, it was basically sexual assault but no i'm not going to do anything about it. As if anyone in this school or indeed the wizarding world is going to help me! As if they're going to believe me, or take me seriously, or send Rosier to Azkaban or whatever. What's the point in making a fuss?

Besides, I am perfectly capable of exacting my own revenge, and frankly, I think I did a pretty fucking good job. Your plan didn't quite work out, did it, Rosier? Your girlfriend dumped you, boo hoo, now she's back with Draco and you're miserable. And by all accounts, so is she. Poor Blondie is more fucked up than she was to begin with and it gives me...such a glow, to know that you, Skylar - you were the one who initiated all this. You're right, as it turns out. Star's fiance doesn't care one iota about her Playwizard shoot, or, apparently, that she's with other guys. According to Star's brother, 'Lore' is fucking other girls. The weddings off. Hurray!

But now you're both miserable. Far more miserable than you would have been if you'd just left me to my original plan. It's great, really. Thankyou. You've done a brilliant job.

Of course, i'm not done yet.

But hey, you gave me a fantastic head-start.

Theo isn't very happy, though. Are you Theo? Hm. He had a go at me for not telling him sooner and for 'letting' Rosier 'take advantage of me' and for 'caring more about hurting Star than you do about loving me'.

Well whatever. Yes, I care about hurting Star. I care very much about hurting Star, because she hurt me. And i'm going to make sure she regrets it. I'm not going to let her sit back and have a nice, pleasant ride on the roller coaster of life. I'm going to give her emotional whiplash. You'd better believe it.

In other news, life is reasonably good. I've been getting fantastic marks in all my classes despite doing very little work - but you know, i've just been so busy with the advanced magic projects we've been working on in The Tree of Knowledge. Like my sparkly new badge? Yeah. I feel so...accepted, now. It's nice.



Envy?

I suppose it would have made sense, at one point. In the past, I was...bitter, I suppose. More bitter than envious. Well alright maybe a bit envious. But really...what the hell do I have to be envious about these days? I can't imagine why that particular 'sin' would be assigned to me.

Still it should be a fairly useful thing to have control over. Think about it - how amusing would it be to make Potter jealous of everyone around him? Jealous of Weasley, even? I'm sure he already has a few feelings in that direction what with being sans family. Haha. Might be a laugh.

What do the rest of you think?

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