It finally happened to me <3

Apr 13, 2013 14:10

Abner told his family about us and we are dating now! This was my Birthday present along with a ton of weed & a giant 3 paper long joint he rolled for us <3 He told me he was in love with me & he thought it would go away but it only gets stronger! I FINALLY have someone who feels the SAME way about me that I do them! FINALLY!! I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy but oh so scared.. but I know he is scared of getting hurt too. He's been sick lately in and out of the hospital. Had x rays, cat scan, endoscopy. Still having stomach pains and heart and lung pain. Trying to figure out what it is.. All in good time but since he has been sick we have only gotten closer.. He took my breath away the night before my Birthday making me his girlfriend and the happiest girl in the world.

I have to move. My rent was raised and I can't afford it as it is plus being behind I got a $25 late fee so my rent would be $679 total starting June 1st if I was to stay but I can't afford it.. I have not talked to my Parents yet other then my Dad.. so still need to tell my Mom & Grandmother but I already gave my notice that May is my last month. I will either move in with Abner & his Mom, Grandmother, & Lisa (The lady with down syndrome who lives with them the one I used to do respite care for.. along with Abner lol) or I may be able to move into my friend Rick's. Or I thought I could ask to move home..

If I was to move into Rick's I would pay $300 everything included except for internet I think. The pets would have to be kept in the garage or basement but I would have a master bedroom with a bathroom/shower & everything. Everyone Rick lives with does 30s and or smokes weed so I would be able to do MORE drugs living here!

If I was to move home I wouldn't have to pay rent & the pets could all be kept in the spare room.. I have not asked them though or said a thing about any of this. I would have to smoke weed & do my 30s in the basement at night times when they were asleep or if I ever had the house to myself I could do it then.

If I move to Abner's I will be far away from work. I will have to pay for rides to & from work. I would pay $350 a month for rides to work & rent. I would not need anything except my clothes/dresser & the critters & their supplies. They would have to live in the shed though which Abner said his Dad will fix up. They will insulate it, carpet it, and make a space for the rats to free play every night like they do here which has to be included in every option of places to move.. I would have to sneak doing 30's on weekends when Abner is at his Dad's & no one could find out.

So those are my main options.. Moving home would be best for the rats. Moving to Rick's would be best for my habits & moving to Abner's would be the best for our relationship... Each option has pros and cons. I would have to cut back major on doing 30s if I end up at Abner's though.

I want the best for the pets.. but I want the best for everything else too ugh! I have plenty of time to figure it all out though.. so... I hope I do! And that I make the right choice.

Feels good to be 29 & have a loving boyfriend. I have dreamed of the day someone would really love me.. and all he did to prove it to me was so perfect & it just swept me off my feet and made me more in love. His Mom knew the whole time she said. They told him to follow his heart. And that Jeff probably wouldnt even care. Abner doesn't like the 10 & a half year age difference & the fact I dated his Brother but otherwise he says I am perfect & no one has made him feel more special before <3 I truly love him & want no other. I crave him & am dying to see him again. Kiss him. Snuggle. We can sleep in the same bed & be open sexually around the house <3 No more secrets! He let down his guard, and talked to his family about this even though it KILLED him to do it. He wished he would fall out of love with me but realized he could not. I think this is the start of the rest of my life.. Complete <3
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