The end
Saturday went ok. I made $212. I guess that is good. It put me close to being able to pay another months rent but I decided to live off the $600 instead until it's gone...
Lots of tears at work. Hugs. The usual...
After hours we partied.. drank, smoked, laughed, cried. We were allowed to get on stage naked and dance for our boss and she was sooooo proud of us. It was a really touching moment. Just 5 naked chicks all nude showing what we got. Feeling like we all were losing a part of our soul walking out that door.. I was given a ride home after 4am.
I spent like $23 at one pet store today & like $83 at another. Got a shit ton of rat food, shavings, and treats. I bought another hamster cage and eventually once home separated the hamsters. They were getting along fine still but I felt bad that they had to share a wheel and one always looked sad waiting for its turn so I figure at least now they get their own cage and wheel. The cages are side by side on the floor now so they wont have to forget one another.
Cael treated me to Olive Garden for dinner. It was very tasty! I was so full! I help her get some green too and she gave me rides to the pet stores so all in all it was a fun Sunday evening!
Jefferson gets a hold of me after 8:30ish. Says he will see me later yet close to 10ish I'm messaging him wondering where he is. I'd done my makeup and everything. Cleaned my place. Lit candles for over an hour so it would smell really yummy when he'd walk in.. I am tired so I go lay down on my bed. I fall asleep then wake up at 11:20pm and my phone had shut off. I didn't have any missed calls- which I wouldn't since my phone was off and it doesnt tell you who called when your phone is off unless they left a message. He had text me asking if we were still hanging out with a sad face. :( I called him a bunch and text him. Eventually he took my call and said he was sleeping he thought I blew him off and had someone else over or something. I said of course not and I was so upset that I feel asleep and my phone was off. He didn't act like he believed me. My phone is such a piece of shit. It ruined my fucking night.
I am supposed to go to Diva's tomorrow around 1:30ish to help everyone move stuff off but I want to hang with Jefferson of course so I don't know what to do. I don't want my boss to be upset if I don't show up. I don't want her to hate me and then be like well Dru can't work the new club because she didn't come help us move out. I could say I have an appointment so I can't be in until later or something? Then just wait for them to call me or something. haha I'm so bad.. but when it comes to Jefferson I just want to see him. I never should of layed down to nap :( I am so fucking stupid. I hate myself sometimes. I fucked my night up bad.
On other news- Matthew claims he is coming back to Maine. He will be here next weekend. He can't wait to see me and hang out he says. I am glad he is coming back. I might need him. Once he starts making mad cash again he could really help me here haha. Terrible of me to say but so very true- I might need some rich men to help me make rent and pay my bills for awhile until I get a good job and I'm able to do it myself.
I'm scared. I don't want to run out of money. I dont want my critters to go hungry. I would never give them away either. I took them and when I did it was for life. I'll find a way to make sure they get everything they need. I'd starve before they would. I might try to get into housekeeping or something. As long as I don't have to pass a drug test... and when it comes to me getting weed maybe I can find a good dealer to let me sexually work off bags? haha. This is so pathetic of me :( I know I can do an out call labor day weekend and I will make $200 an hour for dancing nude. He wants me to come over one night- spend the night (in my own room there in my own bed, nothing creepy) Then dance for him again in the morning before he brings me home. So I'll make $200-$400 from that.. this will help me a lot.
The only plus about not stripping at Diva's is that I can get my body back to not hurting. My knees are so shot and my body aches so bad. All of the girls have really bad "stage bumps" too. Which are pretty much pimple like bumps that appear all over your body wherever you touch the stage floor the most. It's caused by girls wearing their heels outside on smoke breaks then tracking in dirt and mud or wetness onto the stage which then causes us to break out like some terrible plague. It's gross. So hopefully in like 2 weeks I will stop getting body aches and pains & the stage bumps will be gone. Honestly if we could of stayed open I would of suffered through the pain... I really am a wreck without my job... this hurts me so bad. I feel like I lost my best friend...
Lots of tears at work. Hugs. The usual...
After hours we partied.. drank, smoked, laughed, cried. We were allowed to get on stage naked and dance for our boss and she was sooooo proud of us. It was a really touching moment. Just 5 naked chicks all nude showing what we got. Feeling like we all were losing a part of our soul walking out that door.. I was given a ride home after 4am.
I spent like $23 at one pet store today & like $83 at another. Got a shit ton of rat food, shavings, and treats. I bought another hamster cage and eventually once home separated the hamsters. They were getting along fine still but I felt bad that they had to share a wheel and one always looked sad waiting for its turn so I figure at least now they get their own cage and wheel. The cages are side by side on the floor now so they wont have to forget one another.
Cael treated me to Olive Garden for dinner. It was very tasty! I was so full! I help her get some green too and she gave me rides to the pet stores so all in all it was a fun Sunday evening!
Jefferson gets a hold of me after 8:30ish. Says he will see me later yet close to 10ish I'm messaging him wondering where he is. I'd done my makeup and everything. Cleaned my place. Lit candles for over an hour so it would smell really yummy when he'd walk in.. I am tired so I go lay down on my bed. I fall asleep then wake up at 11:20pm and my phone had shut off. I didn't have any missed calls- which I wouldn't since my phone was off and it doesnt tell you who called when your phone is off unless they left a message. He had text me asking if we were still hanging out with a sad face. :( I called him a bunch and text him. Eventually he took my call and said he was sleeping he thought I blew him off and had someone else over or something. I said of course not and I was so upset that I feel asleep and my phone was off. He didn't act like he believed me. My phone is such a piece of shit. It ruined my fucking night.
I am supposed to go to Diva's tomorrow around 1:30ish to help everyone move stuff off but I want to hang with Jefferson of course so I don't know what to do. I don't want my boss to be upset if I don't show up. I don't want her to hate me and then be like well Dru can't work the new club because she didn't come help us move out. I could say I have an appointment so I can't be in until later or something? Then just wait for them to call me or something. haha I'm so bad.. but when it comes to Jefferson I just want to see him. I never should of layed down to nap :( I am so fucking stupid. I hate myself sometimes. I fucked my night up bad.
On other news- Matthew claims he is coming back to Maine. He will be here next weekend. He can't wait to see me and hang out he says. I am glad he is coming back. I might need him. Once he starts making mad cash again he could really help me here haha. Terrible of me to say but so very true- I might need some rich men to help me make rent and pay my bills for awhile until I get a good job and I'm able to do it myself.
I'm scared. I don't want to run out of money. I dont want my critters to go hungry. I would never give them away either. I took them and when I did it was for life. I'll find a way to make sure they get everything they need. I'd starve before they would. I might try to get into housekeeping or something. As long as I don't have to pass a drug test... and when it comes to me getting weed maybe I can find a good dealer to let me sexually work off bags? haha. This is so pathetic of me :( I know I can do an out call labor day weekend and I will make $200 an hour for dancing nude. He wants me to come over one night- spend the night (in my own room there in my own bed, nothing creepy) Then dance for him again in the morning before he brings me home. So I'll make $200-$400 from that.. this will help me a lot.
The only plus about not stripping at Diva's is that I can get my body back to not hurting. My knees are so shot and my body aches so bad. All of the girls have really bad "stage bumps" too. Which are pretty much pimple like bumps that appear all over your body wherever you touch the stage floor the most. It's caused by girls wearing their heels outside on smoke breaks then tracking in dirt and mud or wetness onto the stage which then causes us to break out like some terrible plague. It's gross. So hopefully in like 2 weeks I will stop getting body aches and pains & the stage bumps will be gone. Honestly if we could of stayed open I would of suffered through the pain... I really am a wreck without my job... this hurts me so bad. I feel like I lost my best friend...