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i cant believe how so completely selfish i can be sometimes. i want the perfect life, the perfect friends, the perfect boyfriend. sometimes i feel like a "wallflower" just watching everyone have the fun. im jealous of everything, of friendships, of things. i dont understand why things happen the way the do. i guess i just think to much of how i want it to be and not letting it just happen. i need to stop thinking, stop wondering, stop wishing..