Its okay
so its been a while. i know i always do this but this time i deleted my myspace. the only thing im going to have is a live journal. just in case anyone was curious what is going on with me. im not longer in bellmore. i am using all my focus on until we fall. we are doing alot more writing and such. in case anyone was also wondering what our new record lyrically is going to be about. this past year. ive been through alot. alot of trying to find myself. alot of emptyness. alot of depression. anger and hate towards myself. i didnt know what to do for a while. but now im alot better. i feel more secure with myself. i kept looking and looking for who i was. but i found out i am what i am now. and i cant think about everything in soo much detail. i drive myself insane. just thinking of all the possibilites of things that could go wronge. i feel more safe now inside with who i am. i blamed myself for alot of bad things that happend in my life not even being my fault. i shut myself out from my best friends and from my family. but the important thing is now im alot better and basically lyrically the new records going to be about how i felt for the past year and how i finally found out im worth something. so to anyone that is intrested there it is. i will be writing in this everyday alot more thank you for giving a shit and reading this . bye. www.myspace.com/untilwefall