Tuesday
today i woke up late and whent to school. its starting to be cold everyday which i like. i love the cold weather. school is alright. im writing alot of music now. trying to mold the style i want for my acoustic stuff. and its finally starting to take shape. but anyways back to school. today was alright i guess. i think i have a problem. i feel like im not doing my job as my girlfriends boyfriend right. i just feel like theres soo much more i should be doing. i dont want her love for me to wear thin even though i dont think it is but i just get this feeling inside like im going to be gone and she wont care. i dont want her to leave me. stupid little things happen i see and i think soo much into detail about it and i drift off thinking of stupid little things and blowing them up and making myself feel like shit. maybe i just get jelous sometimes i dont know. i hope she never leaves me though i dont know what i would do. theres so many good moments weve had and soo many more good moments we could have. i feel that this is only the very begining this past year and some with her. its grown to be very big you know. you get into a relationship and your like dont know whats gonna happen but i know its not gonna go wrong or anything anymore but at the same time i get worried that something is. someone else is going to catch her attention or something. i dont know why though. theres nuthing that shows that but i just worry so much. im scared,, im just really scared of losing her. so as tuesday rolls on i think of her. i think of times we shared and many more i want to share. and how i want to never let go. i hope everyone else had a good day.