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[meeshphaser]

i just found a 'restored' entry i wrote on here ages ago that opened when i went to write a new entry.

seems i only write in here when shit things happen or when i'm feeling shit. sorry.

although i think ellen is possibly the only person who might even read this anyway! so sorry ellen.

i'm so fed up right now.

uni was going great and it still is to a degree.. but well it is.

i got the most incredible gold glaze.

i'm just suffering from this insane mental block. i feel i have utterly suppressed my creativity since i even came on this course.

i hate that.

two years of wasted time. i've done nothign good in two whole years.. an dnow it matters.. i'm fuckign up cos i can't think outside the box.

it's driving me fricking crazy.

i'm so stressed about everythign else.. uni prob isn't actually bad.. i'm prob just stressing for no reason about it cos everythign else is shit.

but i can't really write about that on here.

boring.

really really boring.

i want to be big a colourful and good and fun. but i just feel supressed.

not even in a good way.
fuck all this.

i can't hack it.

:(

people can be so rubbish.