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Whoa. LJ changed.
I feel like I need some direction. I'm taking calc, chem, and german but none of them are what I want to do at all with my life...so it feels like a waste( but I know if I want to take bio or whatever I have to get the chem done). I feel like I need a change, more variety. I really hope I get the honors classes that I want to be in, but who knows with the add codes.
I'm really glad I'm going to the INN every tuesday night. I think its really helping me a lot and I'm really interested in Hebrews now because the parts we have examined(or the speaker has examined and I've thought about) really interest me. I've read parts of the Bible on my own but it really doesn't compare to reading it along with someone discussing it, and then thinking about it from there. Its really a lot like English analysis but to me it seems like there is a lot more practicality. It applies directly to my life and that's the point.
Kind of off of that I think I'm in the position to possibly help someone. At least I was there today when she needed to talk about stuff and I need to be there for her later because there was something she wanted to change that she's been doing, and she knows its wrong and knows its going to hurt her but has done it several times. Today she said how she didn't want to do it anymore but knows she probably will. I hope I'll be able to be there for her when she needs someone to remind her of that. Its not really whether she does it or not its just that she wants to change but is stuck in the rut, settling for less than what she wants, and less than what every person deserves. Despite our major differences I hope I can help her at least a little bit.
Its weird to think my life would be totally different right now if I hadn't been put in this cluster. I'm not sure whether it would be better or worse, just different. I need to get out and meet more people, especially in Hannah's dorm because as she's getting more confident with people, she'll be more confident about introducing me to people, and I'm excited for that. I'm just excited to meet her at all and really glad that she liked the friends that visited me on friday. I'm just really thankful she's at the UW and I have a feeling that we can be friends for a long time. We had an almost six year break, but I feel like its restarting and I just really love being with her and am sad that we missed those six years, but know that they were probably needed for us to be friends now.
I'm tire.d I need to write letters to people, or at least notes. I miss a lot of people that are now gone, even people who didn't necessarily play a big role in my life, or probably didn't know that they played a big role in my life. I also miss the people that are close by and I'm not sure whether I should do something about that or just let it pass. It might be something that will pass in time anyways, and its makes me really sad. I'm not sure whether its meant to or not though, whether I should fight it, or whether it will just waste me emotionally like it did before.
I feel like I need some direction. I'm taking calc, chem, and german but none of them are what I want to do at all with my life...so it feels like a waste( but I know if I want to take bio or whatever I have to get the chem done). I feel like I need a change, more variety. I really hope I get the honors classes that I want to be in, but who knows with the add codes.
I'm really glad I'm going to the INN every tuesday night. I think its really helping me a lot and I'm really interested in Hebrews now because the parts we have examined(or the speaker has examined and I've thought about) really interest me. I've read parts of the Bible on my own but it really doesn't compare to reading it along with someone discussing it, and then thinking about it from there. Its really a lot like English analysis but to me it seems like there is a lot more practicality. It applies directly to my life and that's the point.
Kind of off of that I think I'm in the position to possibly help someone. At least I was there today when she needed to talk about stuff and I need to be there for her later because there was something she wanted to change that she's been doing, and she knows its wrong and knows its going to hurt her but has done it several times. Today she said how she didn't want to do it anymore but knows she probably will. I hope I'll be able to be there for her when she needs someone to remind her of that. Its not really whether she does it or not its just that she wants to change but is stuck in the rut, settling for less than what she wants, and less than what every person deserves. Despite our major differences I hope I can help her at least a little bit.
Its weird to think my life would be totally different right now if I hadn't been put in this cluster. I'm not sure whether it would be better or worse, just different. I need to get out and meet more people, especially in Hannah's dorm because as she's getting more confident with people, she'll be more confident about introducing me to people, and I'm excited for that. I'm just excited to meet her at all and really glad that she liked the friends that visited me on friday. I'm just really thankful she's at the UW and I have a feeling that we can be friends for a long time. We had an almost six year break, but I feel like its restarting and I just really love being with her and am sad that we missed those six years, but know that they were probably needed for us to be friends now.
I'm tire.d I need to write letters to people, or at least notes. I miss a lot of people that are now gone, even people who didn't necessarily play a big role in my life, or probably didn't know that they played a big role in my life. I also miss the people that are close by and I'm not sure whether I should do something about that or just let it pass. It might be something that will pass in time anyways, and its makes me really sad. I'm not sure whether its meant to or not though, whether I should fight it, or whether it will just waste me emotionally like it did before.