I think I understand a little better now.
Women I had castigated as viscious unfeeling bitches, I now see as pathetic little girls. Hurtful men I now know are just little boys.
When you let go of ego, you change EVERYTHING. When things stop being about me, they become about EVERYTHING.
I felt so sad last night, and when Adam called I just felt sadder, but you know my feelings are not the only thing and it's only when I think they are that they control me and WHAT I DO.
There's a LOT to do. I can help my brother and control my life and make a huge difference.
Adam loves me and Jess loves me and my family is EVERYTHING to me and I can be real and help these people and exist in a form not dominated by grief and shame and hurt. My decisions aren't a thing of pompous state, they're just one girl's small choices.
Small choices are EVERYTHING.
huh.
When you let go of ego, you change EVERYTHING. When things stop being about me, they become about EVERYTHING.
I felt so sad last night, and when Adam called I just felt sadder, but you know my feelings are not the only thing and it's only when I think they are that they control me and WHAT I DO.
There's a LOT to do. I can help my brother and control my life and make a huge difference.
Adam loves me and Jess loves me and my family is EVERYTHING to me and I can be real and help these people and exist in a form not dominated by grief and shame and hurt. My decisions aren't a thing of pompous state, they're just one girl's small choices.
Small choices are EVERYTHING.
huh.