Well that was awkward.
Talked to the ex for a long while today... it was weird. Got all sorts of stuff cleared up between us, a lot more of those last few months makes sense. Too bad making sense doesn't equate to resolving anything. Basically, I was a douch, she was a bitch, and one of our mutual best friends egged on the whole thing. And now he's apparently trying to get into her pants, at least according to her point of view. I'm so glad I got clear of all that bullshit. And no way in hell I'm going back to it.
I'm glad the air got cleared out between me and Sheri, but that in no way means I'd be willing to trust that group of people ever again. Even if they've changed on the surface, there would be no way to trust them again, not after all the misleading bullshit, the lies, and the plotting behind my back. Nor would I expect them to ever trust me again, nor should they. I proved myself unreliable back in the day, and I don't think I could ever convince them that I've changed.
Which I like to think that I have. I'm not sitting content on the changes, I fell into all that stuff once, I'm working hard to bring myself as far away from it as I can. I mean that both in the literal and philosophical sense, I never want to be in that place within my mind again. The difference this time is that instead of having people around me who help bring me down, the people I'm around help to keep me safe, even from myself. Its nice having people who, if I needed to, that I feel I could rely on. Which is more than I can say of my last set of associates.
*sigh*
I'm just glad I'm moving in 6 months or so. I need out of this town. Too much history here... too much of it bad history. I've gotten my closure from my relationship with Sheri, its time to get clear of the last remements of my life here.
I'm glad the air got cleared out between me and Sheri, but that in no way means I'd be willing to trust that group of people ever again. Even if they've changed on the surface, there would be no way to trust them again, not after all the misleading bullshit, the lies, and the plotting behind my back. Nor would I expect them to ever trust me again, nor should they. I proved myself unreliable back in the day, and I don't think I could ever convince them that I've changed.
Which I like to think that I have. I'm not sitting content on the changes, I fell into all that stuff once, I'm working hard to bring myself as far away from it as I can. I mean that both in the literal and philosophical sense, I never want to be in that place within my mind again. The difference this time is that instead of having people around me who help bring me down, the people I'm around help to keep me safe, even from myself. Its nice having people who, if I needed to, that I feel I could rely on. Which is more than I can say of my last set of associates.
*sigh*
I'm just glad I'm moving in 6 months or so. I need out of this town. Too much history here... too much of it bad history. I've gotten my closure from my relationship with Sheri, its time to get clear of the last remements of my life here.