and so it is... just like you said it would be, life goes easy on me most of the time...
so, im really scared to go back to school this semester. i dont wanna fall back into my anti-social, depressive habits. i was thinking about commuting this semester... but i know i would totally shit the bed and pretty much never go to classes. and i think my main problem is my major. i guess i just realize there are so many better things i could be doing with my time rather than listen to boring professors lecture me. i need to be creative again, whether it be through dance, singing, or my guitar. i'm just so bored with my life at fitchburg, and i think the only reason i am looking semi-forward to going back to school is because of the party scene there, and that just ain't right. i think i'm just afraid to leave fsc because its become a safety zone for me. i'm afraid to move on with my life and actually become an adult. right now, im just acting like a spoiled brat. i dont have a job, and all i do pretty much is party when i dont even have the means to do that! i really really really need to get my act together, and soon, before i self-destruct.