its wierd
zoloft is the wierdest drug. i havent taken it in like 2 weeks, cause i havent been able to see the dr. but i have had so many emotions in these 2 weeks. zoloft makes you emotionless i realize. i have cried and thought so much in the past 2 weeks. i have thought about my whole life. how i miss living in CA...god it seems so long ago. i miss some of my old friends, not the baseball friends i had, but friends in cali, and othetr places. i have also had dreams about the summer and our all-star team. i cant believe we were one of the best teams in the nation, in the world. we are the best in va and was one of the best period. god it so such a emotional roller coaster. but it was so so much fun. you dont know how it is until it is past you. i havent talked to really anymoe from that team since it all ended that day in georgia. what a ride we had, our whole summer we were together, and when that is gone you begin to miss it. i remember the speech i gave before the bristol game-hoe the tem was so torn, how it was such a emotional game, and people left the room crying. and pauly went out ther,e and pitched his heart out. fuck i have had many things i suck at, but i have a gift when it comes to coaching. that speech i know meant alot. that whole team meant alot to me. this year, i want to change so many things in my life. i just want to let go of the past and have new memories and be happy. but god last year was such a good year, an up and down year...i just hope this year is as eventful as last.