Indecisive

[meenum]

I still don't know what I want to do in the future. There are so many things that I'm alright at, but I don't have this one thing that I am perfect at.
I mean;

• I take pretty good pictures
• I'm interested in style
• I'm pretty good at my instrument
• I was fair at sports (swimming)
• I have a foot in cooking/baking
• I can use a computer
• I have an imagination for writing
• I can sing a pitch
• I could see myself as a lawyer
• I'm pretty good at taking charge (lol)
• I can decorate a room fairly well (thank you sims.)

But that's all stuff I like. Or I'm decent at. Nothing I LOVE. Because it changes from day to day. I fall in love with something, then I want to do something else. I like this thing, then I want to change and do something else. I mean, It is always something different. I don't have a set path, and I want one. I want to read books and contain knowledge in a certain area that will help me in the future. I want to have ONE certain thing that I am an expert at, I can do perfectly, and I am the best. I want that so bad. People my age already have things they've been doing for years. Or they already have an idea of who and what they want to me. My book is empty. My plans are blank. I want to know what I want so badly. I want to be able to look things up and know names, events, etc. I just can't find something to do that in. I will set up little mini plans that I want for myself that I'm going to start doing to improve and get set on the right track, but I am not able to keep up with it. This little dent in my routine won't bend into my life style. I HATE IT. I wish I could find something, and stick with it. I want it to change

My Goal For March:
Get an Idea for My Future