will you say to them when i'm gone
Title: River
Character/s: Alex Fielding, Tony Hill, John Fielding
Spoilers: For the events of 6.04 ‘The Dead Land’
Disclaimer: I own a bit of this, actually. Not all of it, just a wee bit.
Word Count: 2,500 words
Summary: Alex takes Tony home.
A/N: This piece isn’t a follow-on from my earlier fic ‘Diamonds’, although it is set in the same place ( Read more... )
Character/s: Alex Fielding, Tony Hill, John Fielding
Spoilers: For the events of 6.04 ‘The Dead Land’
Disclaimer: I own a bit of this, actually. Not all of it, just a wee bit.
Word Count: 2,500 words
Summary: Alex takes Tony home.
A/N: This piece isn’t a follow-on from my earlier fic ‘Diamonds’, although it is set in the same place ( Read more... )
I love the slow pace you set here and I think it works beautifully to show, like you said, the calming effect Alex's family home has on Tony. And your talk about how Tony never really had anything like this (the loving family or a peaceful escape) makes me both sad for his past and terribly happy for the fact that he has Alex now and that she wants nothing more than to share this with him and that her family is so accepting of him.
I seem to have this thing about Tony imagining her when she was young. What is that even about, Liz.
*welcome to Liz's crappy attempt to be a psychologist* I think it's because of something we've talked about before, how we wish Tony would ask Alex questions about her life and express more curiosity about her. When you're really head over heels for someone and want to know everything about them, picturing little baby them is just part of that, isn't it? It's just terribly sweet that he wants to picture who she was before she grew into the woman he's in love with now.
I love that Tony is just occasionally writing his own lines in your fics. He's quite clever and says the most romantic things.
Oh, yeah. You're absolutely right that Alex would need major reassurance that Tony's going to be okay and she absolutely wouldn't settle for those "I'm fine"s. She cares way too much about Tony to be satisfied with being anything but 100% sure and I can see what he told her on the rock getting he much closer to that and letting her relax a little bit but I have a feeling the poor woman is going to be fretting over this a long time until she sees proof repeatedly for herself that he is working through this.
And you make an interesting point about Tony's doubts. No matter how sure he is of his reasoning here, I can absolutely see that part of him that tends to doubt himself and the fact that he's lovable, worrying that he's going to freak Alex out or that the fact that he's now killed someone will somehow make her think less of him. But the gorgeous thing is that Alex is going to be there to reassure him at every step of the way.
I like the idea of John being stoic and very much focused on going about his daily business. I can very much see Alex getting that determination to get on with it no matter what from him. And it's quite sweet that seeing Alex's love for Tony is this one bright spot for him and he's chooses to focus on it.
I think the rock in the middle of the river worked well. I especially liked Tony's initial hesitation and the way Alex reassured him and he just went with it because he trusts her completely. AWWWW. It's like a whole big lovey dovey metaphor and what not and I like it. I also agree re: the appropriateness of Alex walking on water.
Yeah! All that you said up there is exactly why I loved that "I need you so much." He leans on her and depends on her in so many ways but he never flat out says, "Hey, Alex, I'd be hopelessly lost without you. You keep me sane/free of imaginary dust/make me feel safe/keep me well eye!sexed/and on and on and on." And Alex absolutely needs to hear that he recognizes and appreciates all the ways she is there for him all the time. YOU ARE RIGHT. IMPLIED BULLSHIT IS NOT CUTTING IT.
I have the perfect song for this exact sentiment, actually, and I'm tripping over myself to get it onto a mix. Hopefully soon.
Oh, you do tease me so!
I approve of all this hands/hair-twisting you fit in and I hope they can do some more of it whilst snogging under Alex's apple tree!
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she wants nothing more than to share this with him and that her family is so accepting of him
For some reason that thing about her family instantly adoring him seems really important to me. I don't really know why (hit me with your awesome psychology-skillz again if you like), but it seems really crucial in my mind. It's not even like Alex spends a lot of time with her family (it seems to me that she doesn't, and is pretty independent and self-sufficient even with them - and I love that maybe this is because she's used to protecting herself and being kind of alone), so maybe it's more my personal thing that I have about Tony getting more open adoration. I'm all about boosting his self-esteem, it seems.
YOUR PSYCHOLOGICAL SKILLZ ARE VERY BRILLIANT. Did you learn from Tony? I'm jealous if he gave you private lessons and I never got any. You're totally right about me wanting subconsciouly to overcompensate for Tony apparent lack of interest in the details about Alex and her life. I think his problem a lot of the time is that his brain is going so fast, in so many different directions, that he just can't focus, not even on her. It's like during the sushi date; he gets there, apologizes for being late, talks about the restaurant and the inquiry and all that, and at no point does he just sit still and concentrate on her. If he had've, he would've noticed the effort she'd made, and been able to be a bit more receptive to it. I kind of want to shout at him to just fucking look at her and CONCENTRATE. It's not like he isn't capable of focusing really intensely on something. If only he would focus his attention right on her, just for a little while, every now and then.
Also, this:
he wants to picture who she was before she grew into the woman he's in love with now.
I teared up reading that, I swear. Genuine tears in my eyes.
Ooh yes, Tony has his moments of brilliance when it comes to writing his own dialogue. I wonder what it says about my brain that apparently I have a fictional psychologist living inside it.
This idea about Tony worrying Alex might think less of him is very interesting. I've always wondered if at some point Alex wouldn't get extremely angry and defensive about the actions Tony had to make on his behalf (like say if Hall and the ACC or something tried to question him about what happened - I can imagine Alex absolutely losing her shit at them to protect Tony), and if this would perhaps be enough to convince Tony that she is 100% on his side, and hasn't lost one molecule of faith in him. I think that when Tony sees Alex fighting on his behalf (like in 6.02) like his crazed little guard dog, it hits home to him how much she really does care, and the lengths to which she'd go for him. A little touch of this post- Michael's death would be rather nice.
"Hey, Alex, I'd be hopelessly lost without you. You keep me sane/free of imaginary dust/make me feel safe/keep me well eye!sexed/and on and on and on."
This is better than the Mulder hallway speech from Fight the Future. I love it. Now go write it in a fic for me. *cracks whip stolen from Electra's brothel*
Since I don't know when I'll get the chance to use that track on a mix (I can't seem to fit in anywhere right now):here it is!
It's called Message To My Girl and it's by Split Enz, although this gorgeous version is an acoustic one done by Neil Finn on his own. It's so so so beautiful, and lyrically perfect, and I shall refrain from posting the full lyrics here because that would be obsessive, so instead have these few lines:
i don't wanna say i want you
even though i want you so much
it's wrapped up in conversation
it's whispered in a hush
though i'm frightened by the word
i think it's time that it was heard
OMG I COULD GO ON. It's so gorgeous. I love Neil Finn. Have I mentioned this before? The man is a genius. Go download lots of Crowded House. It will improve the quality of your life, I promise.
Apple tree snogging. I gotta write that. Don't let me forget.
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Tony has indeed been giving me private psychology lessons. I didn't want you to be jealous but it's seems you've found me out. We go out for coffee and he tells me all sorts of super sekrit psychologist stuff.
So, I've been thinking this comment about Tony not really focusing on Alex. Do you think part of it could be him holding himself back? I mean we've talked about how he doesn't believe she'd ever fancy him back. Maybe he's afraid if he asks her all the things he wants to, he'll fall even more in love with her and seeing as how he thinks it's hopeless, he just doesn't let himself? Of course, that just opens up the possibility of him just letting loose with all sorts of random questions once they do start dating. I get the feeling that once he starts focusing on her, it's going to be intense. Like he'll be calling her at all hours of the night, "Alex, what sports did you play as a kid? Alex, are you afraid of birds? Alex...?"
I could be smoking the fandom crack here of course but it makes sense to me.
I wonder what it says about my brain that apparently I have a fictional psychologist living inside it.
It says only good things. I'm certain.
Oh, yes, I very much like Alex getting hardcore defensive of Tony after Michael. In fact, I recall her doing just that in one of your early post-6.04 fics and I believe I squeed like a maniac whilst reading it. I do like the added bonus of witnessing ghetto protective on his behalf Alex reassuring Tony of how much she cares for him too. You know how I love when he's pleasantly surprised by her protectiveness/refusal to let anyone mess with him 'cause he's her boo.
Now go write it in a fic for me. *cracks whip stolen from Electra's brothel*
Woman, when you whip me with that Electra whip, you know I can deny you nothing.
Thank you for the song! I love it and you're right that it's perfect for them when they're in that just still barely hesitating but just about ready to take the leap and be together kind of place. And there you go giving me more music to seek out. You keep me in good tunes!
Apple tree snogging. I gotta write that. Don't let me forget.
*jumps up and down* *waves hands in air to get your attention* AMELIA, YOU NEED TO WRITE SOME APPLE TREE SNOGGING LIKE RIGHT THIS MINUTE. IT'S SUPER IMPORTANT.
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I have no problem with this fact.
And you're right that that's why it's so touching and wonderful to see Tony getting along so well with Ben (and Alex too, obviously); because even though he's never had anything like that before, it actually comes really naturally to him. Like Alex would say, he can do it!
*seethes with jealous rage over your sekrit psych tutorials and coffee dates with Tony*
Maybe he's afraid if he asks her all the things he wants to, he'll fall even more in love with her and seeing as how he thinks it's hopeless, he just doesn't let himself?
Yeah, I definitely like this. I'm sure he holds back a lot with her, just as much as she does with him, as a means of self-preservation. And about his focus being super-intense once let loose? Absofuckinglutely. Every time Tony says that line about the killer in 6.03 (it's something like 'he'll be obsessive with her' etc etc), I always have a little chuckle to myself. Way to totally describe yourself, Mr showing up on her doorstep at three in the morning every five seconds. I also think Tony would find it difficult to stop himself from hitting up John and possibly Jago, if he's around, for extra Alex info too. I can imagine John mentioning something throwaway that she did as a kid, and Tony perking up and asking hundreds of questions and being totally enthralled.
So, in conclusion, the crack you're doing? I'm doing it too. It's good crack. Vegan crack.
As we've established hundred million times already, Tony just doesn't get subtle, and there's nothing quite so far away from subtle as Alex going completely apeshit at anyone who dares to mess him around. This is yet another reason why I'd love to see Hall stick around, just so Alex could harbour this eternal grudge against him for putting Tony at risk, and Tony could witness every day just how much she adores him and wants to kick ass on his behalf all the time. It would be epic in so many ways.
I'm glad you like the song. I love the sentiment; it's so Tony deciding he needs to change his life, and make it revolve around Alex. I'd definitely definitely definitely recommend checking out some Crowded House back catalogue. I'm going to keep you going in random music recs for ages, aren't I?
APPLE TREE SNOGGING IS A LITTLE BIT ON HOLD BECAUSE I HAVE THIS ALEX/TONY!ESTABLISHED SCENE IN MY HEAD THAT IS FIGHTING ITS WAY OUT WORD BY WORD RIGHT NOW. IT IS ALSO SUPER IMPORTANT.
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Way to totally describe yourself, Mr showing up on her doorstep at three in the morning every five seconds.
It really is a good thing that Alex seems to have grown to enjoy stalkerish behavior if Tony is the one doing it. I have to laugh in 4.01 when she yells at him to not ever call her house again because you know in the next year or two she's totally dying for him to call her every night and blowing up his cell right back.
So, in conclusion, the crack you're doing? I'm doing it too. It's good crack. Vegan crack.
Excellent. It's nice that we're on the same crack. I think we're the only two people in the world on this particular brand and it's terribly lucky we've found one another to be all cracked out together. (Also, terribly amused by the vegan crack comment as a friend and I were having a really random debate about whether various illegal drugs were vegan the other night. Obviously, our crack is.)
I do like the idea of Hall sticking around for Alex to be hostile towards. You're so right that even Tony couldn't miss something as obvious as Alex getting all ragey and hostile with the FEELINGS on his behalf and I think it would be both hilarious to see Alex be a huge bitch to Hall and adorable to see Tony feeling all loved and protected as a result.
I'd definitely definitely definitely recommend checking out some Crowded House back catalogue. I'm going to keep you going in random music recs for ages, aren't I?
You are keeping me in random music recs! And I love the Crowded House song on my mix! *resists urge to ramble about it now - I shall save it for my epic mix reply!* I need to think of some stuff to rec you to repay the favor. *puts on iTunes and thinking cap*
APPLE TREE SNOGGING IS A LITTLE BIT ON HOLD BECAUSE I HAVE THIS ALEX/TONY!ESTABLISHED SCENE IN MY HEAD THAT IS FIGHTING ITS WAY OUT WORD BY WORD RIGHT NOW. IT IS ALSO SUPER IMPORTANT.
EVERYTHING YOU WRITE IS SUPER IMPORTANT. GO WRITE SUPER IMPORTANT THINGS AMELIA. THE FATE OF THE WORLD DEPENDS UPON IT.
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Ha! I love how she comes to love and crave the stalkerboo activity. I bet she sits around all pissed off and grumpy on days when he's too busy with classes to call her or stop by. And yeah, poor 4.01 Alex. Gurl had NO IDEA.
Which side of the vegan/non vegan drugs debate were you on? I can imagine it would be almost impossible to know if your drugs of choice were vegan, unless you made it yourself in your garden shed meth lab of course, and could list all the ingredients that were used. Hmmm. Can't say I'm much of an illegal drug person, myself, so luckily this whole vegan/non-vegan thing doesn't really apply. Now, legal drugs, that's my style! Caffeine and anti-inflammatories are pretty much my life. Throw in a little Valium every now and then, and I'm a happy girl (okay, that sounds terrible. I'm joking. Mostly.)
Frick, how much do I want DCI Alex in her pencil skirts and fuck-me heels being bitchy to Hall? She would be so awesome and so ridiculously sexy. Why is it that the idea of her being kickass and bitchy is so hot? What is that even about.
OH GOOD. I'm so pleased you seem to have enjoyed the mix, and the Crowded House! They're truly, truly amazing. Neil Finn is a fricking poet. The way that man writes, just... shit. I can't even. You've got to listen to 'When You Come'; it is absolutely hands-down my world-favourite most romantic/sexy love song of all time. (I'm going to regret making that claim in about six minutes time, when 'Crash Into Me' by Dave Matthews comes on my iPod.)
WELL, NOW YOU ARE BACK, I MIGHT BE CAPABLE OF SOME CREATIVITY AGAIN. WHO AM I TO LET THE UNIVERSE BE DESTROYED BECAUSE OF A LACK OF ALEX/TONY FIC?
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And, lord love a duck, she returns the gazing time a gazillion in 5.03. WTF? I am still not over all that intense eye sex. That was hardcore, boo.
You are so right! She must now get distressed when he doesn't stalk her. I bet she starts to worry if he doesn't send her at least five random e-mails and call her several times in a day. If he doesn't call at least once before she's had her morning coffee, the poor girl is probably out of sorts for the remainder of the day.
Exactly! I was with you on the crack argument. There's no way to know what's in that shit. You always hear about crazy additives that kill people and what not. There have got to be some crazy animal ingredients we don't know about. This all started because I was excited about some really random vegan thing. (I honestly think it might have been my new deodorant. I know, I'm weird. But it smells really fucking nice.) John claimed I get irrationally excited and immediately purchase anything vegan and he said, "So, you start doing crack because it's vegan." And I insisted that crack probably wasn't vegan and thus the debate. I'm not an illegal drug person at all either. There are way too many addicts in my family for me to have been even slightly interested. (Oh, look, random TMI for you!) Caffeine is currently the most addictive thing I'm on as well and, damnit, I fail at giving it up.
I don't know why it's so hot but you know I'm on the 'bitchy Alex turns me on' train with you. How is it even hotter when she's in a pencil skirt? That's stupid. Everything's hotter when she's in a pencil skirt... or red jogging shorts... or high black boots. DAMN HER. WHY MUST SHE CONSTANTLY TURN US ON?
Oh, your comment about Crowded House reminds me that you sent me music yesterday! I need to go download. Whee! Thank you.
WHO AM I TO LET THE UNIVERSE BE DESTROYED BECAUSE OF A LACK OF ALEX/TONY FIC?
Only you can save the world, cupcake. Well, only you and Simone's boobs.
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the poor girl is probably out of sorts for the remainder of the day
(You mean like me when I get up in the morning and there's no replies from you in my inbox yet?)
That's exactly it with the crack debate; you can't possibly know what's in it unless you've made it yourself. And that's just too difficult. I repeat: I'm shit at science. And even though I may be a caffeine/painkillers/exercise/health freakery fiend, I am also the kind of person who doesn't like putting weird unknown stuff in my stomach/anywhere near me. HENCE MY HATRED OF POWERADE. I mean, what is blue in nature? Blueberries. That's it. Nowhere in the natural world does it say that humans are supposed to drink things which are fluorescent blue. So, in short, I agree with you. And I'm also excited for you about your new deodorant. I understand this excitement. It's my kind of thing.
Yay! You're doing the random TMI! I love it. I'm always smacking you in the face with my TMI, so please do throw it right back at me as often as you wish. And I hear you on the being surrounded by addicts thing: I've just discovered my sister is hooked on temazapam for her insomnia which, although I do understand given my own weird sleep issues, I'm not terribly impressed about. But then it's no good me going to her and saying 'Oh Clarabell, why don't you just go for a run? Then you'll sleep better!' because then she'll just look at me and go 'Um yeah. Let's see how you survive without running for twenty-four hours.' And she'd be entirely right. I'm an addictive personality too, completely.
Why are bitchy women so hot? I was thinking about this with Gags yesterday, actually; the bitchier she is, the more I fancy her. Of course, like Alex, Gags also has her moments of incredibly mind-blowing sweetness and loveliness, so maybe that balances out the bitchy? I don't know. It's a mystery to me. But hot damn. Alex Fucking Fielding. I'd be committing all sorts of murder to get locked up in her nick.
Oooh I hope you like the music! I'm listening to Ben Harper right now, actually, and oh, he is so wonderful. Just wait till you listen to 'Beloved One'. It's so gorgeous and so perfect for contemplative!Tony immediately post-6.04.
I think I am currently failing at saving the world. Not one word of fic has come out of my head in the last few days. I'm not quite sure what I need to do to address this dire issue, babe. Any ideas?
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(You mean like me when I get up in the morning and there's no replies from you in my inbox yet?)
Ha! I'm glad I'm not the only one. I act sort of like Tony when confronted with no buns if I wake up without an Amelia reply or two in my inbox.
Oh, goodness gracious no. I'm with you. I have enough trouble perfecting my muffin recipes, I don't even want to attempt crack. (I do make a badass muffin though. Maybe I'll make you some super healthy bran something or other muffin since you were so kind to make me vegan lasagna earlier.) Does crack explode or is that just meth? Either way, I just don't want to chance it.
I used to love foods in unnatural colors when I was little but now I'm with you they concern and frighten me. I just want foods that are actual foods. Powerade is on my shitlist both for being a freakish color and for having the nerve to splash on you during your race. Fuck Powerade, man.
And I'm also excited for you about your new deodorant. I understand this excitement. It's my kind of thing.
THIS IS WHY WE'RE MARRIED. Thank you.
But see, at least running is a healthy thing to be addicted too as opposed to random sleep drugs. I think you'd still have the advantage in any resulting disagreement there. As a fellow addictive personality, I'm with you in channeling said addictiveness into healthy and/or harmless things like exercise and obsessive TV viewing.
I don't know exactly why bitchy woman are so hot either. Maybe part of it is that women are expected to be sort of quiet and cooperative as a general rule so women who embrace and really roll with their bitchy are sort of bucking the system? Rule breaking hotness, you know. Or maybe we're just weird. And I'm with you in thinking the combo of overwhelming sweetness mixed with overwhelming bitchy is especially delicious.
I'd be committing all sorts of murder to get locked up in her nick.
Oh, I wanna come! *jumps up and down* Pick me as your accomplice, please! We are married after all. You know what they say. The couple who commits crimes together, stays together. (And also hopefully gets locked up by a hot Scottish Detective!)
I shall be bumming around and cleaning my apartment tonight so I shall catch up on all the tunes you've sent and probably send you random thoughts!
You know, I've been absolute crap at writing anything lately too. I have my femslash 10 story which I absolutely have to write and tons of WitB stuff that I want to write and NOTHING. Perhaps one of us has given the other some sort of weird no writing disease? We'd better keep throwing prompts at one another in an effort to combat this.
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Well, at least we're both as codependent as each other. I can live with this.
Muffins, huh? You and Kev should get together and have a little bake-off! I fail so miserably at cooking sweet stuff/baking/dessert-making in general; anything that involves flour which doesn't end up as pasta is just too difficult for me. I have no idea if either crack or meth explodes, but I know if I attempted to make it with my non-existent science skills it probably would.
Yeah, I think a love of unnaturally coloured foods are kind of inevitable when you're a kid, which is actually kind of sad because that's exactly when you most need to be eating actual real stuff with nutrients etc, but I guess that's marketing for you. But now, however, I just want to eat stuff that comes out of the ground or falls off a tree or something, rather than having been created by some geek in a test-tube. Ha. I'm feeling so self-righteous greenie vego at the moment!
YOU'RE WELCOME ABOUT THE DEODORANT. It's like me being excited about my new moisturiser. I understand.
I suppose running is a healthy alternative to crack after all. And yeah, obsessive TV viewing! That's one of my absolute favourites, in case you didn't realise. Along with gazing at screencaps, which is at the moment occupying a hell of a lot of my time. (Although I did find a small burst of creativity: fanmix fanmix fanmix!)
Oh, hot bitchy women, you will be the end of me. I think you're so right about a lot of it being the rule-breaking/bucking the system thing. Well, that and the general proficiency with firearms and the crazy fearlessness. And the Kevlar!
You're so totally my accomplice. And that way we can't be forced to testify against one another, either. The question is, who are we going to kill?
(Your random thoughts are wonderful and interesting and I shall send you some of my own in a little bit too.)
Is writer's block an STD? Maybe that's something to do with it. All that hanging about in front of the fireplace dvd has to have a downside. However, see above fanmixfanmixfanmix! for evidence of a possible upswing in creativity! Also, your prompt for this comment is............. Tony accidently blurts out something about Alex's boots being sexy. Go on. Write it, baby.
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Yes, surely it's advisable as a codependent to marry another codependent so you can feed off of and encourage each other's codependency issues, right? *is terribly proud of our healthy marriage*
Why do I feel like Kevin would be super annoying in a bake-off? He'd be all cocky and "My muffin is going to kick your muffin's ass!" Also, he'd recruit Paula to be his chef's assistant and she'd be awesome and helpful but also just roll her eyes at him constantly and say things like, "Kev, it's just a bake-off. Calm down."
I just want to eat stuff that comes out of the ground or falls off a tree or something, rather than having been created by some geek in a test-tube. Ha. I'm feeling so self-righteous greenie vego at the moment!
Oh, man, I just started this book about a woman who started investigating the food system here in America after her daughter had this horrible allergic reaction. It is awful and is scaring the crap out of me. It's basically all about how corporations own our entire food supply and could give a shit if it's safe as long as they're making money. And, of course, it seems America is the worst offender in the world pretty much because y'all other countries have some frakking sense. Anyway, I want to move to the middle of nowhere and grow all my own food and not let anyone else near it so get down with your self-righteous greenie vego self. It's the way to be.
I am super excited for you about your awesome new moisturizer too. Moisturizer is important!
It's a good thing we have so many healthy alternatives to crack going. Who knows what gutter we'd be passed out in if we didn't have our working out, obsessive TV viewing, livejournaling, and screencap gazing to keep us occupied.
This is an excellent question. Since we are aiming to get locked up by Alex, we obviously need to kill someone in Bradfield. And lets just say we can't go back and kill anyone who's already been murdered already which rules out all of Tony's girlfriends. Hmmm. I wonder if Alex's super annoying boss is still around Bradfield? The one from season 4. I always found him particularly offensive and smarmy. Hall might be on my list but if he's dead we can't watch Alex go nuts on him so forget that. Any other candidates?
Is writer's block an STD? Maybe that's something to do with it. All that hanging about in front of the fireplace dvd has to have a downside.
Hey, maybe if we keep hanging out in front of the fireplace DVD, I'll catch some of your recent productivity! Come on over and give me a snuggle, babe.
Also, your prompt for this comment is............. Tony accidental blurts out something about Alex's boots being sexy. Go on. Write it, baby.
Can I just whine and flip out for a brief moment here? I wrote the start of three different fic ideas yesterday and can't think how to finish any of them and even what I do have is absolute crap. I THINK I AM BROKEN. Or at least no longer capable of anything that isn't total crack.
Obviously more fireplace snuggles are in order to console and/or attempt to heal me. *sad look in your general direction*
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This is yet another reason why I'm glad we've not employed Ianto to take notes.
And now I'm imagining Kevin on Iron Chef or Come Dine With Me. He would be so histrionic and intense. I bet he owns chef's whites and a baker's hat and wears them around his kitchen at home. I can imagine Paula having to be talked into/bribed into being his sous chef; she's pretty skinny. I don't really see her as being into baked goods. (She's vego, right? At least in my head she is. What was on that pizza they were eating?)
Oh, but then there are the biscuits. Oh well. There goes that brilliant theory.
Books like that scare the crap out of me too. Have you read 'My Year of Meat'by Ruth Ozeki? That book will freak you out. Also, it's really very good.
This moving to the country and being self-sufficient is what my parents tried to do when I was little. They thought they were in an episode of The Good Life, apparently (I think my mum just wanted to be Felicity Kendal, understandably). Sadly, they failed miserably. Apparently this sort of thing takes planning and skill, who knew.
I was just thinking the other day how curious it is that all of Tony's ex-girlfriends are dead. It's terribly convenient for Alex, isn't it? Also, I would kind of like to suggest that maybe we could kill Carol, but I'm not sure if I'm going to hell or not for saying it. Alex would be pleased with us, I'm sure. But yeah, if not, the old ACC is a good possibility, as is the jerk-off DI in 6.02. We could take two tall skinny blokes, I think.
Wooo, snuggle time. Of course it's all in the name of aiding your productivity. Or maybe I'm taking liberties again.
Please do whine and flip out. *pets you* I hate it when that happens. Right now it's like I can only write when I'm not trying to; like the Gabriel thing, it just fell out of my brain by accident. If I actually try to sit down and write something (like I did last night with the roses/formal wear prompt), not much really happens. I think we just need to be patient, and perhaps stare at some more caps. Here you go, darling. Tell me Tony isn't checking Alex out in this shot. He's all leaning back in his chair all suave and sexy-like, and she's getting all flustered and fidgeting with the pen in her hands under the power of his pervy gaze. It's hot.
What's that knock at your door? Oh, it's me, in a Burberry trench with fancy knickers and a Kevlar vest on underneath. And boots. Honey, I'm home. Let me in.
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I like this idea of Paula as (totally typed 'Paula ass' the first time. Like that idea too, obv.) a veggie. We'll have to examine the pizza when we do 6.02 to make sure it's only cheese. And you may still be still be right about her being a bit of a health nut. Maybe she only breaks down and goes for biscuits when she's trying to distract herself from Tony being annoying and/or trying to resist the urge to grope Alex in the close quarters of the surveillance van.
I haven't read My Year of Meat but I just looked it up and I'm quite intrigued. I'll check it out!
Who knew you needed planning and skill to move out to the country and be self-sufficient? How disappointing! And heaven knows I couldn't be too out in the middle of nowhere as I'd still need my cable TV. Maybe I should learn a lesson from your parents and not give it a go after all. I'll just settle for continuing to by stuff from the farmer's market from people who actually know what they're doing.
I was just thinking the other day how curious it is that all of Tony's ex-girlfriends are dead. It's terribly convenient for Alex, isn't it?
*cracky thoughts about Alex secretly arranging all of Tony's girlfriends be killed*
But, yeah, we could totally take two tall skinny blokes with our badass ninja moves! And Alex dislikes both the old ACC and the jerk-off DI from 6.02 so surely she'd be sympathetic for us and maybe show us some cleavage whilst we were locked up to cheer us up. She is very sensitive and caring after all.
Wooo, snuggle time. Of course it's all in the name of aiding your productivity. Or maybe I'm taking liberties again.
Whether done in the name of aiding my productivity or you taking liberties, I enjoy this and encourage you to continue!
*pets you back* How terrible when we both have creativity troubles. But perhaps we are both on an upswing! You've been quite the little fanmix fiend lately and I managed the one so perhaps these are are signs of good things to come! Probably we owe it all to these gorgeous caps you keep throwing out.
TONY IS OBVIOUSLY CHECKING ALEX OUT IN THAT CAP. Specifically, I'm pretty sure his head is tilted down and to the side a bit because he's checking out her FM boots and maybe also her ass in that skirt. Her ass does look glorious in that skirt. Also, I think Paula may be glancing at Tony in a vaguely disapproving fashion because he's so obvious about his ogling. Paula's much more subtle about checking Alex out, you see.
You know, there are so many things I love about our marriage. I thank Alex's magical boobs each and every day for our marriage. But, if forced to name an absolute favorite thing about our partnership, it's when you show up at my door in a Burberry trench with fancy knickers and a Kevlar vest on underneath and boots. *grabs you by the Kevlar and pulls you inside*
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I can totally buy Paula feeling the need to binge-eat biscuits when faced with the frustration of being in a confined space with 1) her boss whom she fancies like all get out and 2) her boss's partner in UST. And a little basketball game. Poor Paula. Her health-freak ways didn't stand a chance. And I just feel the need here to have a little squee about her "Maybe you should call Tony" line. !!!!!!!!!!! How awesome was that!? Kevin would've been so happy with her for saying that when she told him about it later.
Yeah, just buy lots of organic fruit and vegetables, listen to lots of folk music and maybe grow some herbs in a pot out on your slab of concrete. Anyway you've already got the livestock.
*shares your cracky suspicions about Alex whacking all of Tony's ex-girlfriends* *goes to watch more Sopranos*
Okay so on the creativity upswing, I've stalled on the post 6.02 fic I was working on (I thought it was total genius at the time, and now I'm having my doubts), so instead I'm working on what began as a Amelia-style folk favourites mix for you but has quickly morphed into a sweet, dreamy, soft and delicate Alex/Tony folk mix. But in the meantime I really want to write something. Anything, I don't care! Maybe I should go look at some more caps.
See, I love that Paula is so disapproving of Tony's overt perving and cleavage-checking. It just shows how much of a classy chick she really is. Tony is just a rather pathetic 14 year old boy when he actually does notice how hot his BFF is, while Paula is all highbrow and subtle with her laps outside Alex's office all day long.
*grabs you by the Kevlar and pulls you inside*
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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A Don taught anger management course would be unbelievable epic. And you and Alex as students really just pushes the idea over the edge. I be surprised if all three of you and any other classmates came out of such a class uninjured, donuts or no. For some reason, I picture it all deteriorating into a FEELINGSy wrestling match. You think Alex is a hair-puller, you should see Don.
Yeah, I do think the close confines of the surveillance van with her boss/crush and her boss' soon to be boyfriend, were all too much for Paula to handle. All she could do was shove biscuits into her mouth and give disbelieving looks in the most adorable fashion imaginable. And then she tells Alex to call Tony because, even though she's got an insane crush on Alex, she's all self-sacrificing and just wants Alex to be happy. (Isn't Paula the sweetest thing ever? No wonder I'm so in love with her.)
I find the idea of Alex ordering hits on all of Tony's ex-girlfriends both strangely adorable and hot.
Don't you hate when you think you've written something totally genius and then you read it again and suspect it's utter crap? That happens to me a lot, especially when I wake up in the middle of the night with ideas. I keep my note pad and pen by my bed because I always wake up with weird thoughts, fic or just random shit, and can't sleep until I write them down. The other night I wrote what appears to be, "Tony... Kevin - ducks." So, yeah, do be on the lookout for that brilliant story soon.
Anyway, I do hope you get the irresistible urge to write something soon. I'll send positive writerly vibes your way if I can find some. And perhaps your 6.02 isn't as bad as you think. Maybe if you add ducks! Or probably staring at caps is a better idea. Whatever the case, your fanmixing skills are as sharp as ever. I'm digging both ghetto!Tony and your folk mix.
Tony is just a rather pathetic 14 year old boy when he actually does notice how hot his BFF is, while Paula is all highbrow and subtle with her laps outside Alex's office all day long.
Paula really is the classiest. She doesn't really perv on Alex so much as she observes her in a highbrow yet pornographically suggestive fashion. It's all in the subtleties. Maybe she should give Tony lessons. He's be a miserable failure though. I just don't think he has it in him not to be glaringly obvious about the cleavage checks.
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I can kind of picture everyone wandering out of Don's anger management class looking all bruised and bloodied and with arms in slings and stuff, all munching on donuts and chatting in a calm, after-glowy manner.
I can't blame Paula for binge-eating at the prospect of being trapped with obnoxious Tony and Alex giving him loving/torturous looks for five hours straight plus. And yes, Paula is the sweetest most self-sacrificing little lovey ever. Your tendency to spend days on ending rolling with her (yes, I'm running with this joke) is totally understandable.
I find the idea of Alex ordering hits on all of Tony's ex-girlfriends both strangely adorable and hot.
I think it's the ragey Italian thing. In our unofficial and largely disorganised Sopranos rewatch, my housemate and I have just passed the bit with Annabella Sciorra (or however the hell it's spelled. I prefer 'Annabella Scorching-Hot' myself), and I'd forgotten how much of a crazy sexy psycho bitch that character was! I want Alex to go ragey and mob-esque more often, I think.
God yes, I do hate that when you've written something that turns out to be nonsense. Are we talking about my post-6.02 thing here? Well anyway, if we're not, that's a good example of just such a scenario. I swear it was GENIUS as I was plotting it all out, and now I'm just... confused. I feel like I should tell you the premise and get your opinion/advice, but that would spoil the whole thing if I ever do actually write it. But I probably won't. I don't know.
Is it 'ducks' as in Kevin ducks down behind a filing cabinet when he realises Alex and Tony have come into the room and are in the midst of a serious flirting session, and then he gets stuck there having to listen ('having to' - like he's not loving every pervy second) as they start getting it on? Or is it 'ducks' as in everyone goes out for Cantonese food one Friday night to celebrate Alex's promotion or w/e and Kevin accidently on purpose hides the cutlery, forcing Alex and Tony to feed each other Peking duck pancakes in a sensual manner? Or, is it 'ducks' as in Tony and Kevin discussing rubber ducks in a Bert-and-Ernie type fashion, while Alex and Paula listen and binge-eat biscuits to cover up their mutual desire to burst out in peals of hysterical laughter?
See? I can go with this stuff. Feel free to share any and all future random post-midnight possible fic thoughts with me. You never know! Some of this stuff could turn out to be gold!
Paula is probably the perving queen extraordinaire of Bradfield CID. No-one ever catches her. Also somewhat relatedly, you know how somewhere or other you mentioned that it would be funny if Alex, Kev and Tony were all perving on Paula in her jeans in the pic in your header? I was thinking it might possibly be even funnier if Alex and Kev were both perving, and Tony busted them and acted all morally superior and disapproving at them for it. He could even tell Paula, which would allow her to be all one-eyebrow-raised 'yeah, people seem to like these jeans' at them all in response. Just a thought there.
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