*tear*
I don't know how many people would actually like to hear about my love life, but I just gotta get it out in the open. It's official....I have just realized that Nino is really leaving. He would never tell me when he had to go to Ohio State before, but today he was talkin to his cousin Carlos and he's leaving in July. That gives me 3 months to prepare myself for the worst day of my life. I was thinking about it today in the car and I started crying like a baby. I don't know what I'm gonna do man. I don't know if there will be anything harder for me to do that watch him drive away. I hate not knowing if he will ever come back for me. Damn I'm gonna miss that lil guy:( I guess when I told him I wasn't going to be with anyone but him, I didn't realize how hard this was going to be. I don't know if he actually took me serious when I said that, but I really meant it. I know we are both gonna be really busy in college, him with his gymnastics and me tryin to figure out what to do with my life. I don't know when we're gonna make time to just talk. He went a year and a half without sex so I don't know if I really need to worry about that aspect, but I just don't want us to give up cuz it's gonna be difficult. I guess I'm just afraid of maybe having everything I've worked for fall apart.