ok didnt even know i felt this way, but i do...
ok so I'm talking to Jon, and like, I started rambling about all this stuff, that itjust came out, and i didnt even know that that is how i feel about my life, i dont know why i even talked so long about it, but here it is, so i dont forget how i feel...kinda i guess...
BigJohnny7: yes its not your game I can tell
MeegieWeegie: what do you mean?
MeegieWeegie: what isnt?
BigJohnny7: the whole romantic way of life
MeegieWeegie: ohmygod it is
MeegieWeegie: but it just...
MeegieWeegie: i gave up on it
MeegieWeegie: cuz it hasnt happened in so long for me
MeegieWeegie: i decided id be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: and be miserasble the rest of my life
MeegieWeegie: cuz im miserable without someone there for me
MeegieWeegie: liek i dont care about sex, liek im in it more for the intellectual side of a relationship, like...being able to always have someone there to talk to, and to cuddle with and just hug thats really all i want
MeegieWeegie: but i guess thats selfish
MeegieWeegie: so ill be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: are you even there?
MeegieWeegie: why arent you talkgin to me?
MeegieWeegie: hello?!?!
BigJohnny7 signed off at 3:47:20 AM.
BigJohnny7 signed on at 3:47:35 AM.
BigJohnny7: it happens same time every night
BigJohnny7: eerie
MeegieWeegie: goddamn it
MeegieWeegie: i thought you hated me for what i said
MeegieWeegie: hehe
BigJohnny7: what did you say?
MeegieWeegie: what was the last thing you saw
BigJohnny7: ohmygod I am
MeegieWeegie: oh jeez
MeegieWeegie: ok, so here:
MeegieWeegie: BigJohnny7: the whole romantic way of life
MeegieWeegie: ohmygod it is
MeegieWeegie: but it just...
MeegieWeegie: i gave up on it
MeegieWeegie: cuz it hasnt happened in so long for me
MeegieWeegie: i decided id be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: and be miserasble the rest of my life
MeegieWeegie: cuz im miserable without someone there for me
MeegieWeegie: liek i dont care about sex, liek im in it more for the intellectual side of a relationship, like...being able to always have someone there to talk to, and to cuddle with and just hug thats really all i want
MeegieWeegie: MeegieWeegie: but i guess thats selfish
MeegieWeegie: so ill be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: are you even there?
MeegieWeegie: why arent you talkgin to me?
MeegieWeegie: hello?!?!
BigJohnny7 signed off at 3:47:20 AM.
MeegieWeegie: the end
MeegieWeegie: are you there?
BigJohnny7: the weird thing is that in the absence of true happiness I think thats the way I would want it
MeegieWeegie: but why?
MeegieWeegie: see the way i see it, is there are a lot of people that have the potential to make me TRUELY happy, and i dont mean like euphorically so, i mean, like i really enjoy life, i dont hate myself when im around them, and i really am just warm inside...(i know sounds gay...) and i think that theres not liek, ONE persont hat can do that to me, but theres a lot of people, and Hopefully ill run into one soon;-)
MeegieWeegie: and im gonna marry the guy that makes me feel good all the time, or well, most of the time, and who feels good around me too, cuz thats what happiness for me is all about, id making others happy too
MeegieWeegie: and that also brings a lot of guilt to me too, cuz like if i cant make people happy, i get depressed.....I'm an angel in disguise says my psychic friend (seriously a friend who is psychic, well talks to dead people..weird, tell ya later...) cuz i ned to help people all the time, but i think i need someone who can help me just as much as i can help them, cuz i dont want to be the giving one all the time...
so i guess thats how i feel about myself...weird that i didnt know it till i read it over and got depressed cuz yet again, well i guess...still...nobody loves me...:(
im outtie~
~meeeeegs~
BigJohnny7: yes its not your game I can tell
MeegieWeegie: what do you mean?
MeegieWeegie: what isnt?
BigJohnny7: the whole romantic way of life
MeegieWeegie: ohmygod it is
MeegieWeegie: but it just...
MeegieWeegie: i gave up on it
MeegieWeegie: cuz it hasnt happened in so long for me
MeegieWeegie: i decided id be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: and be miserasble the rest of my life
MeegieWeegie: cuz im miserable without someone there for me
MeegieWeegie: liek i dont care about sex, liek im in it more for the intellectual side of a relationship, like...being able to always have someone there to talk to, and to cuddle with and just hug thats really all i want
MeegieWeegie: but i guess thats selfish
MeegieWeegie: so ill be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: are you even there?
MeegieWeegie: why arent you talkgin to me?
MeegieWeegie: hello?!?!
BigJohnny7 signed off at 3:47:20 AM.
BigJohnny7 signed on at 3:47:35 AM.
BigJohnny7: it happens same time every night
BigJohnny7: eerie
MeegieWeegie: goddamn it
MeegieWeegie: i thought you hated me for what i said
MeegieWeegie: hehe
BigJohnny7: what did you say?
MeegieWeegie: what was the last thing you saw
BigJohnny7: ohmygod I am
MeegieWeegie: oh jeez
MeegieWeegie: ok, so here:
MeegieWeegie: BigJohnny7: the whole romantic way of life
MeegieWeegie: ohmygod it is
MeegieWeegie: but it just...
MeegieWeegie: i gave up on it
MeegieWeegie: cuz it hasnt happened in so long for me
MeegieWeegie: i decided id be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: and be miserasble the rest of my life
MeegieWeegie: cuz im miserable without someone there for me
MeegieWeegie: liek i dont care about sex, liek im in it more for the intellectual side of a relationship, like...being able to always have someone there to talk to, and to cuddle with and just hug thats really all i want
MeegieWeegie: MeegieWeegie: but i guess thats selfish
MeegieWeegie: so ill be an old maid
MeegieWeegie: are you even there?
MeegieWeegie: why arent you talkgin to me?
MeegieWeegie: hello?!?!
BigJohnny7 signed off at 3:47:20 AM.
MeegieWeegie: the end
MeegieWeegie: are you there?
BigJohnny7: the weird thing is that in the absence of true happiness I think thats the way I would want it
MeegieWeegie: but why?
MeegieWeegie: see the way i see it, is there are a lot of people that have the potential to make me TRUELY happy, and i dont mean like euphorically so, i mean, like i really enjoy life, i dont hate myself when im around them, and i really am just warm inside...(i know sounds gay...) and i think that theres not liek, ONE persont hat can do that to me, but theres a lot of people, and Hopefully ill run into one soon;-)
MeegieWeegie: and im gonna marry the guy that makes me feel good all the time, or well, most of the time, and who feels good around me too, cuz thats what happiness for me is all about, id making others happy too
MeegieWeegie: and that also brings a lot of guilt to me too, cuz like if i cant make people happy, i get depressed.....I'm an angel in disguise says my psychic friend (seriously a friend who is psychic, well talks to dead people..weird, tell ya later...) cuz i ned to help people all the time, but i think i need someone who can help me just as much as i can help them, cuz i dont want to be the giving one all the time...
so i guess thats how i feel about myself...weird that i didnt know it till i read it over and got depressed cuz yet again, well i guess...still...nobody loves me...:(
im outtie~
~meeeeegs~