LIFE (not the cereal) (or the game)
I am so deathly afraid that my life will turn out like my parents. Consciously I say to myself that I will do anything in my power to not mimic what i've seen all of my life. But sometimes i act out in a way that DOES mimic everything i've seen. Note: not everything i've seen was negative. I did see a lot of love come from my parents, and they showed me NOTHING but love. However, children do notice that somthing is not right. My father never communicated very well with my mom, and my mom a lot of the times wouldn't treat my dad fairly. I see myself do that sometimes with Tony...I get really annoyed over somthing that is totaly ridiculous. Then after i calm down a little i realize that what i was upset or annoyed about really doesn't need that type of attention. I am so thankful for Tony...He makes me talk to him about what is going on in my head. He shows me comfort when i just need to ball my eyes out, when i'm scared and when i have doubts about my life and where i am going with it. I know somtimes that He feels like he has no idea what to do with me and our relationship, but i think in the end he sees me and wants to do anything he can to make me happy. I love Tony and I feel like right now he is one of the only people that I can tell everything to and trust that no judgment will come from him, only love and support.
ahhh, this has been too much rambling...
ahhh, this has been too much rambling...