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So, it's been a rough week. I negotiated with the company that should remain nameless, and I got everything I asked for. They gave me a space for Luna, (though I do have to pay, but with the money I am saving on health insurance I am about even on that front) They adjusted my start date so I can finish the play I am doing with the kids I work with now. And, they gave me some money for relocation.. Not as much as it will take, but some.
It was really a spiritual exercise to ask for anything. To jump through the fear and the hoops, and to be seen as valuable. ( I guess the nest step is to be able to do that work on the inside and completely and not need these outside validations) Initially they told me no relocation for folks at my pay grade, so, it was a bit brave to ask.
At my job now, the emotional fuckery is intense. The " You are so amazing and will leave a big whole, but you won't be successful any place but here." song
What I worry about:
Getting the rest of the money to move
working for a big corporation
plucking Luna out of her school
What I celebrate:
having a fresh start
my courage to jump
having a free pool to swim in
It was really a spiritual exercise to ask for anything. To jump through the fear and the hoops, and to be seen as valuable. ( I guess the nest step is to be able to do that work on the inside and completely and not need these outside validations) Initially they told me no relocation for folks at my pay grade, so, it was a bit brave to ask.
At my job now, the emotional fuckery is intense. The " You are so amazing and will leave a big whole, but you won't be successful any place but here." song
What I worry about:
Getting the rest of the money to move
working for a big corporation
plucking Luna out of her school
What I celebrate:
having a fresh start
my courage to jump
having a free pool to swim in