Teamleader reporting back
I think I am back. I had an amazingly hard week starting back at work, because I was still having a lot of trouble sleeping because of a nasty cough. My work is pretty demanding even when I feel fit so I won't even begin to explain how it is with lack of sleep and a body that's still recovering from a nasty nasty cold...Luckily the coughing is nearly gone now so things should get better.
I don't want to be all whiny or anything but I noticed this as a recurring subject n my flist so here I go. I too am having some trouble deciding where to go with my professional life.
See the thing is this: I am a resident but I haven't committed to a specialty. At the moment I work in Internal Medicine, something I enjoy muchly but also an area of expertice that is considered one for smarties and geeks. BUT...also something I would like very much to commit to.
The majority of the attending Internists, including the educator, all think I would be a great candidate for the training programm. So far no problem, right?
Well...the thing is, I am somewhat fickle...There's never been an area of expertise that I have been "in to" for very long and if I commit to this triaining programm it's a potentially life altering decision because it would be what I'll be doing for the rest of my life (idealy) Now I've only been aware that I want to do Internal for a couple of months and I need some time for myself to savour that and let it settle, but one of the attendings who is closely involved in the training is constantly on my back about giving him my final answer about wanting this or not. And everyone is being really nice and giving me compliments and everything but I am just not sure I am up for it....and all this pressure I am feeling about making a decision is not helping much, it's only making me feel incredibly stressed out...pff now I rambled...sorry...
Look what ohbooth got me! *points at icon* Thanks hun, it's awesome. Dean in Kaz and me in an awesomely plastic Trabi! *squeee*
edit: thanks muchly to bobbinrob for making it! *hugs*
In other news:
I don't want to be all whiny or anything but I noticed this as a recurring subject n my flist so here I go. I too am having some trouble deciding where to go with my professional life.
See the thing is this: I am a resident but I haven't committed to a specialty. At the moment I work in Internal Medicine, something I enjoy muchly but also an area of expertice that is considered one for smarties and geeks. BUT...also something I would like very much to commit to.
The majority of the attending Internists, including the educator, all think I would be a great candidate for the training programm. So far no problem, right?
Well...the thing is, I am somewhat fickle...There's never been an area of expertise that I have been "in to" for very long and if I commit to this triaining programm it's a potentially life altering decision because it would be what I'll be doing for the rest of my life (idealy) Now I've only been aware that I want to do Internal for a couple of months and I need some time for myself to savour that and let it settle, but one of the attendings who is closely involved in the training is constantly on my back about giving him my final answer about wanting this or not. And everyone is being really nice and giving me compliments and everything but I am just not sure I am up for it....and all this pressure I am feeling about making a decision is not helping much, it's only making me feel incredibly stressed out...pff now I rambled...sorry...
Look what ohbooth got me! *points at icon* Thanks hun, it's awesome. Dean in Kaz and me in an awesomely plastic Trabi! *squeee*
edit: thanks muchly to bobbinrob for making it! *hugs*
In other news:
- Merc won the F1 championship with Lewis Hamilton in the LAST CORNER of the race! *balls* It's not that I wanted Massa as a champ I just didn't want a Merc driver to win it. Yeah I am petty like that. LOL atleast they didn't get the constructors championship! o/
- Bones will be back this week and believe it or not, this whole hiatus has made me look forward to a new episode! I know I might be disappointed...again...but maybe there's some hope?
- HIMYM tomorrow (so Tuesday for me) YAY!! I missed Barney
- I have a new found love for bananas. But only if they're still a little bit green, I don't like them yellow or brown, they're too smelly that way.
- I broke out my winter coat last week. There's really no way around it: summer's over...*pouts*
- ILU flist!!! *huggles*