"i couldn't tell if anyone here was feeling the way i do"
I'm off to work in 3 hours...i still need to shower and get ready, go get my prescription filled and do some laundry so i'm sure these 3 hours will fly by. I can't wait until Tristan and I are out of here! I have been spending a lot of time researching New Orleans and I now work at Walden Book Store...and they said I can transfer so that's a relief for me...I'm still going to send some resumes out to other places down there though...to see if I get any better offers.
Things have been annoying me lately...i just want out of here...I hate the mall...there are so many teeni-bopper couples running around and making out and I just want to walk up to them and inform them that once upon a time I was there too...and to get over it now because thjose relationships will never last. It annoying...they are like 13 and they think they found their mate for life?! I'm 21 and I can't even say I've found MY mate for life...although I am sure that I have found someone I will have in my life forever...the only garentee on our relationship is our strong connection and friendship...who's to say we will be "romanyically involved" forever...it just seems sort of immature to assume such a thing...or perhaps just naive...for lack of better adjectives. And I hate the competitive nature people have in the boyfriend/girlfriend subject. She wants him so she'll stab her in the back and manipulate him to have him blah blah blah...or that whole "mine forever" attitude which prevents people from actually growing and learning and having what they really need...and what's with this whole "we are a better couple then them" mentality that I see so often? to say such a thing simply degrades your true perception of your relationship...and shows insecurities...almost proving that you feel you have something to prove and that takes away from what you should actually be focusing on. God damn....and I know I'll never escape these things...I've seen them from MA to UT and I'm sure so many will never grow out of there blind visions and ways. I guess it just pisses me off because I used to be like that but I learned to live and love freely. I learned the importance of other people and I learned that even good things don't often last forever. I learned that instead of focusing on "i love you's" I should be focusing on "i have fun with you's" and instead of holding hands and only looking at each other we should be feeling the warmth of the sun and embracing ALL the people we care about and looking and absorbing everything and everyone's beauty...we should be growing...relationships that are done the wrong way are like 5 year olds drinking coffee...it will slow your growth.
so yeah...these are my thoughts of the day...
Things have been annoying me lately...i just want out of here...I hate the mall...there are so many teeni-bopper couples running around and making out and I just want to walk up to them and inform them that once upon a time I was there too...and to get over it now because thjose relationships will never last. It annoying...they are like 13 and they think they found their mate for life?! I'm 21 and I can't even say I've found MY mate for life...although I am sure that I have found someone I will have in my life forever...the only garentee on our relationship is our strong connection and friendship...who's to say we will be "romanyically involved" forever...it just seems sort of immature to assume such a thing...or perhaps just naive...for lack of better adjectives. And I hate the competitive nature people have in the boyfriend/girlfriend subject. She wants him so she'll stab her in the back and manipulate him to have him blah blah blah...or that whole "mine forever" attitude which prevents people from actually growing and learning and having what they really need...and what's with this whole "we are a better couple then them" mentality that I see so often? to say such a thing simply degrades your true perception of your relationship...and shows insecurities...almost proving that you feel you have something to prove and that takes away from what you should actually be focusing on. God damn....and I know I'll never escape these things...I've seen them from MA to UT and I'm sure so many will never grow out of there blind visions and ways. I guess it just pisses me off because I used to be like that but I learned to live and love freely. I learned the importance of other people and I learned that even good things don't often last forever. I learned that instead of focusing on "i love you's" I should be focusing on "i have fun with you's" and instead of holding hands and only looking at each other we should be feeling the warmth of the sun and embracing ALL the people we care about and looking and absorbing everything and everyone's beauty...we should be growing...relationships that are done the wrong way are like 5 year olds drinking coffee...it will slow your growth.
so yeah...these are my thoughts of the day...