It sucks being a loser...
Well, chalk another one up for me in the loser column. My cellphone service was interrupted today. I've got to go talk to them in the morning (after my physical for my new job) and see if I can get it cut back on. If not, my new job will have no way to contact me, and tell me if I have a new job or not. I still have to pay my rent. Blah. Missing work for those couple of days, then missing it due to the week I was in Greenleaf has set me back financially... I'm not gonna work overtime because the guy that was the key factor in my divorce (and who is dating my ex) is the Shift Manager on the other shift where I work at, and I'd have to see him if I did work overtime. I fear I would end up in jail.
I had another nightmare last night. Arguing with your ex in a dream sucks, because you are only arguing with yourself. I woke up today feeling angry, depressed, and fairly worthless as a human being. I loved her with everything I had, and I wasn't good enough. That is what led to the mistakes I made. That is why she left me for him. I don't feel I'm worth it anymore, and the only woman who makes me feel like I am worth something is out of my reach. Bah... she's outta my league anyways. God I'm glad you gave her to me as a friend. I don't want to ever lose that, no matter what direction you give our relationship in the future.
I'm cleaning up my room now... so when she visits, I can get her to stay. I'd love to hang out over here with her, but my house is a wreck. She's right... it is depressing over here.
Wish me luck with the physical, and getting my phone back on. :(
Much love to ya.
I had another nightmare last night. Arguing with your ex in a dream sucks, because you are only arguing with yourself. I woke up today feeling angry, depressed, and fairly worthless as a human being. I loved her with everything I had, and I wasn't good enough. That is what led to the mistakes I made. That is why she left me for him. I don't feel I'm worth it anymore, and the only woman who makes me feel like I am worth something is out of my reach. Bah... she's outta my league anyways. God I'm glad you gave her to me as a friend. I don't want to ever lose that, no matter what direction you give our relationship in the future.
I'm cleaning up my room now... so when she visits, I can get her to stay. I'd love to hang out over here with her, but my house is a wreck. She's right... it is depressing over here.
Wish me luck with the physical, and getting my phone back on. :(
Much love to ya.