First things first, thank you so much for commenting and telling me these things. I think I needed to hear/read them.
Second thing, most of what you've been saying is stuff I realize too and when it boils down to it, to be perfectly honest, a lot of the problems that I've been having with getting Blaine to be loud and out there has come down to my own personal energy levels and RL issues. I started to post to the plotting meme, for example, because I know the main issue I'm having with Blaine right now is getting him involved in other plots, but then I had stuff come up with my family and I was like "Is this really the time for me to be posting when I know I might be slow/fall through some of these plots?" so I got worried about committing to something and then not being able to do it.
What I'm saying is that pretty much everything you said I know I've been messing up with, and I'm sorry. I've been really trying to get Blaine out there more, having him reply to posts where he can get his voice out there, but there's a lot going on in this game I think he would avoid. When it comes down to it, he is scared, and he's trying to make sense about this place. Like, him talking about God and talking to the Doctor have all been his attempt to make sense of this place, but I think I've gotten him to the point where he's passed that. He knows where he is now, and how this is going to work, now it's going to get down to what he really does about it.
As far as him not responding in anger to Kurt's situation... I thought a lot about what Blaine was going to do while I was on vacation and I made up my mind that he was going to try not to make the situation worse for Kurt. He basically sees what happened as other people trying to prey on Kurt and Kurt blaming himself for it, not as an attack on him. If he responds with anger, then it just makes things worse. So it's less a "For you of all people" moment, when Blaine saw what Kurt was doing as a personal attack, and more of a "Let me buy you lunch" in Never Been Kissed moment, where something was happening to Kurt and Blaine didn't know what to do so he offered instead some kind of distraction. Blaine has anger towards other people about what happened, but Yaha was dropped and AIG is too big of an entity for Blaine to want to take it on.
I was thinking he might try something anyway, especially depending on what happens with Kurt's case, and that the company could maybe do some retaliation against him? It's much easier for Blaine to feel angry on behalf of other people than himself and I think one of the only reasons he does respond to Kurt with anger in BIOTA is because he sees Kurt as the one person who would never judge him. When I originally applied as Blaine here I really wanted him to end up as some kind of freedom-fighter figure or at least part of some kind of rebellion or fight against the entities he sees as being "bad". I thought he'd actually be ripe for exploitation because of his desire to be a part of something bigger than himself. Your plot with Kurt really sets it up to get to that point too, as the more Blaine learns about this place, the more outraged he'll be by how things work. I'm just not sure how to even begin a plot like that here.
The problem is that I'm personally have been waiting for a moment when I'll be able to break into that kind of plot, but I'm not really sure how to start really getting into it. I thought having Blaine learn about about his abilities with Helen would help, or having a friendship with Billy, or being influenced by Jinx's attitude (considering she's already mentioned that she's gone against the companies before), but the ideas mean little-to-nothing if I don't kick myself in the ass and actually get them done!
So... you're right. I need to get to that. I will have to post to the plotting meme with what I want for Blaine and see if I can break through. I just need to stop letting my own exhaustion and mind fog from stopping me from doing it. RP is always very relaxing for me once I get into it, it's just breaking into it that is the problem...
So, again, yes to all of what you just said. And thank you for saying it. :)
Oh awesome. C: Okay. That makes sense. Thank you for explaining it to me.
Honestly, yeah, it is tough getting into those bigger kinds of plots, but I know Kelly and Tori and the other mods are great for helping out with that kind of thing. Honestly, I hate to push social networking on anybody, but Plurk is simply the best tool for plotting and talking to other players. That's how all my plotting happens, honestly. If you put your Plurk name in your plotting post and I spam it all over my own Plurk you'll get followers in no time. It's just an awesome way to stay connected and plot with people. c:
Really, if you sort of communicated how Blaine is thinking about all of these things internally, his reactions would make a lot more sense. Because especially in the situation with Yaha, he didn't react angrily so I didn't see that he was feeling that way. Maybe jump into his head a little more in brackets/prose? Just to detail his thought process a little more.
As for this upcoming plot-- I really wanted to tackle this issue now because this plot is essentially going to have Kurt kissing another boy (while under the influence, of course, but he'll still feel terrible) and seducing Blaine. I definitely don't see Blaine being totally 100% okay with that regardless of the reasoning. Like... I was thinking they could have a kind of fight/separation because of it. What do you think?
I do have a Plurk. It's under the same name as my journal. I think. I'll have to check when I get home.
And yeah, I get why you would be confused. Blaine is one of those characters where a lot is going on behind the scenes because he's trying so hard to keep up a certain image, when something negative is going on in his head he tries to cover it up. He actually has a pretty awesome mix of showing his emotions on his his sleeve while also hiding a lot of himself. It's one of the reasons I like him so much.
They would definitely have a fight over Kurt kissing another boy, especially a friend, and even more if Blaine doesn't know what's going on. If he doesn't realize it's while under the influence of something, and tehn again if he finds out that it's actually Kurt acting out on his own desires? Blaine will be super hurt by that. There's going to be a part of his mind that then wonders if that means that Kurt wants to be with other people, and self-doubt isn't something Blaine handles well. If it looks like it's something that Kurt wants then that's completely different than Kurt being blackmailed or exploited.
OKAY COOL. Essentially the desire for Kurt is to be sexually confident and desirable--not to kiss any particular boy. SO YEAH that sounds super awesome. As long as they have a happy ending and can resolve things and make up (and have hot sex) then I'm game for some conflict. c:
Lol. Hey, I love angst. But yeah, Blaine is going to be like "He was kissing another boy! Does that mean he wants to be with other boys? Was I just the shiny, new, only other gay boy in Ohio to him? I mean, I'm not really all that great so why would he be with me anyway? He's so amazing, of course he wants another boy!" But instead of expressing all that, he's probably going to lash out.
His powers would totally mess up too, and he could end up breaking something with his mind...
Oh god it will be so sad... Also, sex. They should totally have sex. And after Kurt will freak out because he did not want to lose his virginity that way and also guilty and jfhahsla. Shenanigans.
Blaine will have some serious issues with this after too. He'll feel super guilty and miserable about it. It could add to him lashing out, because he wants Kurt so bad so having it end up be something that traumatizes Kurt will hurt just as badly.
Second thing, most of what you've been saying is stuff I realize too and when it boils down to it, to be perfectly honest, a lot of the problems that I've been having with getting Blaine to be loud and out there has come down to my own personal energy levels and RL issues. I started to post to the plotting meme, for example, because I know the main issue I'm having with Blaine right now is getting him involved in other plots, but then I had stuff come up with my family and I was like "Is this really the time for me to be posting when I know I might be slow/fall through some of these plots?" so I got worried about committing to something and then not being able to do it.
What I'm saying is that pretty much everything you said I know I've been messing up with, and I'm sorry. I've been really trying to get Blaine out there more, having him reply to posts where he can get his voice out there, but there's a lot going on in this game I think he would avoid. When it comes down to it, he is scared, and he's trying to make sense about this place. Like, him talking about God and talking to the Doctor have all been his attempt to make sense of this place, but I think I've gotten him to the point where he's passed that. He knows where he is now, and how this is going to work, now it's going to get down to what he really does about it.
As far as him not responding in anger to Kurt's situation... I thought a lot about what Blaine was going to do while I was on vacation and I made up my mind that he was going to try not to make the situation worse for Kurt. He basically sees what happened as other people trying to prey on Kurt and Kurt blaming himself for it, not as an attack on him. If he responds with anger, then it just makes things worse. So it's less a "For you of all people" moment, when Blaine saw what Kurt was doing as a personal attack, and more of a "Let me buy you lunch" in Never Been Kissed moment, where something was happening to Kurt and Blaine didn't know what to do so he offered instead some kind of distraction. Blaine has anger towards other people about what happened, but Yaha was dropped and AIG is too big of an entity for Blaine to want to take it on.
I was thinking he might try something anyway, especially depending on what happens with Kurt's case, and that the company could maybe do some retaliation against him? It's much easier for Blaine to feel angry on behalf of other people than himself and I think one of the only reasons he does respond to Kurt with anger in BIOTA is because he sees Kurt as the one person who would never judge him. When I originally applied as Blaine here I really wanted him to end up as some kind of freedom-fighter figure or at least part of some kind of rebellion or fight against the entities he sees as being "bad". I thought he'd actually be ripe for exploitation because of his desire to be a part of something bigger than himself. Your plot with Kurt really sets it up to get to that point too, as the more Blaine learns about this place, the more outraged he'll be by how things work. I'm just not sure how to even begin a plot like that here.
The problem is that I'm personally have been waiting for a moment when I'll be able to break into that kind of plot, but I'm not really sure how to start really getting into it. I thought having Blaine learn about about his abilities with Helen would help, or having a friendship with Billy, or being influenced by Jinx's attitude (considering she's already mentioned that she's gone against the companies before), but the ideas mean little-to-nothing if I don't kick myself in the ass and actually get them done!
So... you're right. I need to get to that. I will have to post to the plotting meme with what I want for Blaine and see if I can break through. I just need to stop letting my own exhaustion and mind fog from stopping me from doing it. RP is always very relaxing for me once I get into it, it's just breaking into it that is the problem...
So, again, yes to all of what you just said. And thank you for saying it. :)
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Honestly, yeah, it is tough getting into those bigger kinds of plots, but I know Kelly and Tori and the other mods are great for helping out with that kind of thing. Honestly, I hate to push social networking on anybody, but Plurk is simply the best tool for plotting and talking to other players. That's how all my plotting happens, honestly. If you put your Plurk name in your plotting post and I spam it all over my own Plurk you'll get followers in no time. It's just an awesome way to stay connected and plot with people. c:
Really, if you sort of communicated how Blaine is thinking about all of these things internally, his reactions would make a lot more sense. Because especially in the situation with Yaha, he didn't react angrily so I didn't see that he was feeling that way. Maybe jump into his head a little more in brackets/prose? Just to detail his thought process a little more.
As for this upcoming plot-- I really wanted to tackle this issue now because this plot is essentially going to have Kurt kissing another boy (while under the influence, of course, but he'll still feel terrible) and seducing Blaine. I definitely don't see Blaine being totally 100% okay with that regardless of the reasoning. Like... I was thinking they could have a kind of fight/separation because of it. What do you think?
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And yeah, I get why you would be confused. Blaine is one of those characters where a lot is going on behind the scenes because he's trying so hard to keep up a certain image, when something negative is going on in his head he tries to cover it up. He actually has a pretty awesome mix of showing his emotions on his his sleeve while also hiding a lot of himself. It's one of the reasons I like him so much.
They would definitely have a fight over Kurt kissing another boy, especially a friend, and even more if Blaine doesn't know what's going on. If he doesn't realize it's while under the influence of something, and tehn again if he finds out that it's actually Kurt acting out on his own desires? Blaine will be super hurt by that. There's going to be a part of his mind that then wonders if that means that Kurt wants to be with other people, and self-doubt isn't something Blaine handles well. If it looks like it's something that Kurt wants then that's completely different than Kurt being blackmailed or exploited.
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His powers would totally mess up too, and he could end up breaking something with his mind...
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Oh god it will be so sad... Also, sex. They should totally have sex. And after Kurt will freak out because he did not want to lose his virginity that way and also guilty and jfhahsla. Shenanigans.
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Blaine will have some serious issues with this after too. He'll feel super guilty and miserable about it. It could add to him lashing out, because he wants Kurt so bad so having it end up be something that traumatizes Kurt will hurt just as badly.
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also I think it's your tag on our thread...unless notifs are balls for me like they always are
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... I think it was the notifs? I mean, we only have the one thread right?
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Hopefully that kind of sums up what I want to do with Blaine?
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