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i am a man seeking to create a better world. there is no place for me in the better world. my only purpose is to help create it for others to enjoy. i know not why or how but that i must do this. i do not mean that i have no reason to live but that i serve a higher purpose than living in a great world. i want to help somewhere. i want to be productive. and i want to understand that the next person is worth much more. and all must be done to ensure that the next person does not lose focus purpose and ambition as i have done but must realize his/her power potential and reason. this must be done. for it is what i truly want. i truly want this. and hopefully plans will be made soon to shift onto a path to reach this end. i want to outlive my wife so that she never has to mourn for me. id much rather die knowing that i kept her from suffering the loss of a husband. i dont want her to question whether or not she should date remarry or even enjoy the company of another after me. id much rather die alone knowing that someone else did not have to....a better world or situation....