In the end, when all is said and done, YOU'RE my favorite mistake
Ewww, I have been in such a ummm, for lack of a better word, yucky mood as of late and I hate it. I was doing so good for such a long time. Maybe I was just in denial, maybe I have been "depressed" all along.
You bring out the best and the worst in me.
Three words.....BLACK COWBOY BOOTS
they will be the death of me, I am almost completely sure of it.
So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, making those old brain cells work. I want to be happy and I have decided to actually make some changes and better myself, turn over a new leaf, if you will. So wish me luck on my new endeavor. I really miss some people of my "past" and I have been thinking about them lately. I hate how people "grow apart" or "outgrow" one another. But I don't really think that is what happens, I just think that we get lazy and don't make the effort towards the friendship anymore. That's sad, but it is completely my fault.
I used to be really good friends with some people and we just drifted apart, I want to just call them and see how things are and tell them that I haven't forgotten them and see if we can give the friendship another go. And just in case I never get up the courage, I just want you all to know that just because we don't talk doesn't mean that I don't think about you and wonder and hope that you are well, REALLY.
So I talked to him, you know that one that everybody has that they can never let go of. Yeah, that one. I miss him, but I will never tell him that I do. I will never give in again. He hurt me in so many ways and I just can't go down that road again and I don't know why I keep going back to him, I am just stupid like that I guess.
Well I hate whining, but it seems that telling all of your problems to people on the internet is the best form of therapy......or something like that.
Well I wrote a song a while ago and Lindsey recorded it for me and I just found it. The song isn't that good, well the lyrics, but the music that Linz helped me with is awesome! I realize what a great friend she was and I kinda fucked that up too. I haven't seen Linz in over a year and I really miss her. She was my best friend... :( I suck at all relationships, I just feel that I suck now more than ever.....
You left me cryin in the dark
with nothing left but this broken heart
you hold my hand now I walk alone
I try to talk to you, but no-ones home
But I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
Now I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I can barely breathe
You talk to me and I hear lies
You're self absorbed and I'm left to cry
My heart is broken, soul is torn
All you've shown me is your hate and scorn
But I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I've layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I let you into my heart and head
Words left unspoken, I hear you leave
Your entire goal was to bring me down
But I, I won't let you go
Because I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I've layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I can barely breathe
I know, total suckage
You bring out the best and the worst in me.
Three words.....BLACK COWBOY BOOTS
they will be the death of me, I am almost completely sure of it.
So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, making those old brain cells work. I want to be happy and I have decided to actually make some changes and better myself, turn over a new leaf, if you will. So wish me luck on my new endeavor. I really miss some people of my "past" and I have been thinking about them lately. I hate how people "grow apart" or "outgrow" one another. But I don't really think that is what happens, I just think that we get lazy and don't make the effort towards the friendship anymore. That's sad, but it is completely my fault.
I used to be really good friends with some people and we just drifted apart, I want to just call them and see how things are and tell them that I haven't forgotten them and see if we can give the friendship another go. And just in case I never get up the courage, I just want you all to know that just because we don't talk doesn't mean that I don't think about you and wonder and hope that you are well, REALLY.
So I talked to him, you know that one that everybody has that they can never let go of. Yeah, that one. I miss him, but I will never tell him that I do. I will never give in again. He hurt me in so many ways and I just can't go down that road again and I don't know why I keep going back to him, I am just stupid like that I guess.
Well I hate whining, but it seems that telling all of your problems to people on the internet is the best form of therapy......or something like that.
Well I wrote a song a while ago and Lindsey recorded it for me and I just found it. The song isn't that good, well the lyrics, but the music that Linz helped me with is awesome! I realize what a great friend she was and I kinda fucked that up too. I haven't seen Linz in over a year and I really miss her. She was my best friend... :( I suck at all relationships, I just feel that I suck now more than ever.....
You left me cryin in the dark
with nothing left but this broken heart
you hold my hand now I walk alone
I try to talk to you, but no-ones home
But I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
Now I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I can barely breathe
You talk to me and I hear lies
You're self absorbed and I'm left to cry
My heart is broken, soul is torn
All you've shown me is your hate and scorn
But I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I've layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I let you into my heart and head
Words left unspoken, I hear you leave
Your entire goal was to bring me down
But I, I won't let you go
Because I can't leave you, I don't know why
I can't count the nights that I've layed here and cried
You never really loved me, just push away
I hurt so much I can barely breathe
I can barely breathe
I know, total suckage