Like a box of chocolates
I just finished a difficult and draining week that I had until recently considered a break from the harrowing ritual of studying. I feel completely drained of life and the schedule ahead of me offers little to assuage my exhaustion.
So naturally I am feeling sad about my present situation and those questions that we often suppress are sneaking up on me, seeping from the recesses where I like to pretend they are buried. I shared the presence of this freshly minted dolor with my girlfriend and then I asked her some of those questions that were unearthed. I hoped that though the questions weighed heavy on me, perhaps she could provide me with some sort of counterbalance to restore equilibrium. I was desperate to feel better.
"What if I'm not happy?", I asked
---"What do you mean?"
"When I'm older, what if I'm not happy?"
---"You'll be a great doctor... people will thank you, you'll be a great father, your kids will love you."
"Yes but what about when I die?"
---"People will remember you and the difference that you made"
"But what about when they die?"
---"Then they will see you in heaven."
"Then why can't I just skip to the heaven part?"
She glanced to the side for a second and then looked straight into my eyes and said "Because they don't have donuts and milk shakes in heaven."
And it's true, they don't have milk shakes or donuts in heaven. Its not going to tip the scales let alone achieve stasis but it still made me feel a little better.
So naturally I am feeling sad about my present situation and those questions that we often suppress are sneaking up on me, seeping from the recesses where I like to pretend they are buried. I shared the presence of this freshly minted dolor with my girlfriend and then I asked her some of those questions that were unearthed. I hoped that though the questions weighed heavy on me, perhaps she could provide me with some sort of counterbalance to restore equilibrium. I was desperate to feel better.
"What if I'm not happy?", I asked
---"What do you mean?"
"When I'm older, what if I'm not happy?"
---"You'll be a great doctor... people will thank you, you'll be a great father, your kids will love you."
"Yes but what about when I die?"
---"People will remember you and the difference that you made"
"But what about when they die?"
---"Then they will see you in heaven."
"Then why can't I just skip to the heaven part?"
She glanced to the side for a second and then looked straight into my eyes and said "Because they don't have donuts and milk shakes in heaven."
And it's true, they don't have milk shakes or donuts in heaven. Its not going to tip the scales let alone achieve stasis but it still made me feel a little better.