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So my 30th birthday just passed. It's one that I don't want to remember...or one that I hope years from now I'll remember the few in between good times. Like the previous post stated, my ex and my friend spent a good amount of time enamored with each other. People think it's strange to start that I'm still friends with my ex-husband. I don't see how it's strange at all! It doesn't make any sense to me when people hate their ex's! I knew him and I weren't meant to be, that doesn't mean I still don't think he's an amazing person and a great friend! He just wasn't suppose to be my husband. So now we're friends. It makes sense. But that just leads into why people don't understand HOW I'm jealous or upset about this whole friend and ex thing. I'm not jealous that someone's interested in my ex-husband. I think Lisa and Jay would make a great couple! I've already given them my damn blessings SO many times.....what I'm pissed about is that they keep telling me that they have too much respect for me to do anything together.....yet they continued to keep finding themselves wandering off together. That just made me feel like they were holding secrets or being sneaky. I'm pissed because it feels like I'm being left out of something! I'm jealous that 2 of my Best friends didn't realize how much they were ignoring me on my birthday week! The one thing I didn't want was to be left out; and that's pretty much the feelings I had all week long. Sure it's not all about me.....but I thought for this one week it was.