Rough Couple of Weeks
So, I've tried to write this entry a couple times now, and I always seem to get halfway through and give up. In my last entry, I wrote that my Grandma had a heart attack. At that point I thought it was something minor, and that she would be fine in a few weeks. Unfortunately, the day after I wrote that entry my parents called and told me that she wasn't getting better and that I should try to get to MD if I could. I was on a plane the next day. I got to the hospital where my family was, including my two aunts and my cousin who had all arrived a little before me. I got to see her a couple times with my family over the next day, got to hold her hand and tell her I love her. But by Monday afternoon the doctors told us that she had also had a stroke sometime between when she had the heart attack and Sunday night, and that she no longer had much if any brain function. So we all sat down as a family and decided that Grandma was gone, and the she wouldn't want to be hooked up to machines when she wouldn't be coming back, and we told the doctors to take her off the machines. My Grandma died on Monday, September 26 around 5:30pm. I lived with her for 10 years before I moved out of my parents house. She wasn't always the easiest person to get along with, but she was also a sweet person who loved me no matter what. I will miss her. It hasn't really hit me yet. I was in MD with my family, sorting through her things, making sure all her financial affairs are in order and giving my support. But the whole time it felt like she was on vacation or something. Like if I just waited long enough she'd come back and ask me if I had a hug for Grandma, tell me she misses me and that I should call her more. I had more to say but I just can't right now.