shoot me.,,,,... PLEASE
Ha... well.. sorry for the doube entry, but now as i sit here still watching sex and the city ..... I just happened to be reading a friends entries on here and realized just how pathetic i really am .... my god. Someone i care about and miss alot is a million miles away and all i want to do is hear his voice and tell him things that i probably shouldnt but hey.. im stupid like that. If i could grab a plane ticket now and go see him just to put my arms around him and hug him i would. Sadly that isnt possible and sadly he will probably never talk to me after reading this. but hey,,.. gotta take chances right? Im not sure whats going on. But, theres something to him. I want so badly to just see him again and hug him, tell him that i miss him. There is one thing that we seem to agree on. its that you are left sometimes wondering if there is something you should have said or something you shouldnt have said, something you should have done or something you shouldnt. I dont want to live the rest of my life wondering if i should have.... You know? I guess with this one i am just gonna let it all out and take the chance on what happens next. So.. to hell with the wondering.. Just do it right? Hmm, if only it was that easy ....... i am going to just got offline and wallow in my bad situation, my bad self judgment and everything else i hate about my life.