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I matched today...except for my socks.
And I started an allergy medicine - flonex - the kind you squirt in the nose. :S
School is a drag.
Memorization of redundant information,
Mental conditioning to teach a person how to function in this fucked-up society;
All pointless, all rendering me hopeless (about society at least).
I know people at school by now; aquaintances.
But they're no Emma, Carly, or John.
I miss Emma and her passion...
I miss Carly and her understanding...
I miss John and his silly humor...
*insert nostalgic sigh here*
Now to cover all the bases:
The book I'm writing (well, rewriting; I didn't like how it turned out before) is coming along.
I don't like it anymore, I want to create something beautiful, but I'm determined to finish it.
And finish it I shall.
Despite the lethargic apathy that denies me the passion to write...
And even though my laptop keeps turning off randomly...
AND it fucking shocked me! >:(
My harp skills are improving, regardless of the fact that I don't care if they do.
I have a recital in 2 weeks. I'm not really nervous; it's more of a "...goddammnit -_-" feeling.
But it's "character building" I guess :S
I've been painting alot lately.
Water color, acrilyics, oils, tempera - all on one canvas sometimes!
But I've made nothing beautiful, nothing clever, nothing that could speak to anyone. :(
Regardless, Marla is trying to get them, and my entire collection (many from years ago), published.
Good luck! :/
Oo, but I've been keeping up with old friends! :D
Carly's been calling me alot lately. :)
And I talk to John on myspace. :)
That makes me very happy. :D
Other than that, I've been pretty much idol - sleeping alot...sitting and staring numbly alot...waiting to turn 18, which is in exactly 13 months and 13 days, which is exactly 13 months and 13 days TOO LONG!
But I'll be patient...
Or..at least I'll try...
And I started an allergy medicine - flonex - the kind you squirt in the nose. :S
School is a drag.
Memorization of redundant information,
Mental conditioning to teach a person how to function in this fucked-up society;
All pointless, all rendering me hopeless (about society at least).
I know people at school by now; aquaintances.
But they're no Emma, Carly, or John.
I miss Emma and her passion...
I miss Carly and her understanding...
I miss John and his silly humor...
*insert nostalgic sigh here*
Now to cover all the bases:
The book I'm writing (well, rewriting; I didn't like how it turned out before) is coming along.
I don't like it anymore, I want to create something beautiful, but I'm determined to finish it.
And finish it I shall.
Despite the lethargic apathy that denies me the passion to write...
And even though my laptop keeps turning off randomly...
AND it fucking shocked me! >:(
My harp skills are improving, regardless of the fact that I don't care if they do.
I have a recital in 2 weeks. I'm not really nervous; it's more of a "...goddammnit -_-" feeling.
But it's "character building" I guess :S
I've been painting alot lately.
Water color, acrilyics, oils, tempera - all on one canvas sometimes!
But I've made nothing beautiful, nothing clever, nothing that could speak to anyone. :(
Regardless, Marla is trying to get them, and my entire collection (many from years ago), published.
Good luck! :/
Oo, but I've been keeping up with old friends! :D
Carly's been calling me alot lately. :)
And I talk to John on myspace. :)
That makes me very happy. :D
Other than that, I've been pretty much idol - sleeping alot...sitting and staring numbly alot...waiting to turn 18, which is in exactly 13 months and 13 days, which is exactly 13 months and 13 days TOO LONG!
But I'll be patient...
Or..at least I'll try...