I don't even know what I'm doing...
The ball is in my court with this whole sterility thing. Patrick and I sat down with Cassy on Saturday night and we all talked about it. (Seriously, Cassy should look into being a therapist or something!) I expressed all of my concerns to Patrick and he expressed his.
Wow, this sounds boring.
I'm scared. I am really, really scared about what will happen between us, especially with all this sterility stuff. I don't want to leave him just because he can't have kids of his own. I want to adopt anyway, on top of having my own child/children. I can't even really talk about why I'm so fucking afriad.
I'm just SCARED.
I wish I knew what the hell I was doing.
Wow, this sounds boring.
I'm scared. I am really, really scared about what will happen between us, especially with all this sterility stuff. I don't want to leave him just because he can't have kids of his own. I want to adopt anyway, on top of having my own child/children. I can't even really talk about why I'm so fucking afriad.
I'm just SCARED.
I wish I knew what the hell I was doing.