{004.} You live in my memories...but you die in them, too.

[medic_plz]

[accidental/involuntary video post]

Hey, wha--

[And then she can only sit and stare at her computer monitor as the memory--her memory--plays, stunned and horrified and struggling to stay in control of her emotions all over again, because for her, this still only happened about a month ago.]

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[ooc: Apologies for manga (memory lasts from 243

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[betterthanthen]

[betterthanthen]

...Rin-chan?

[medic_plz]

[the doors to their rooms are open, and she's just across the hall from you, so if you listen really carefully, you might hear some muffled sniffling]

...Y-yes, Sakura-senpai...?

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[betterthanthen]

[in the doorway now, hesitant] This curse is not as benevolent with some people...

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[medic_plz]

[trying, trying oh so hard to keep in control here, but the unexpectedness of having the memory shoved in her face works against her]

I just...it...

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[betterthanthen]

... [walks to behind Rin's chair, and places her hand on her head in the biggest big-sister move ever] Hey...it's okay.

No-one is forcing you to watch this.

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[medic_plz]

[swipes away a tear, then blinks in mild surprise at Sakura's action] ...I know, but...it felt wrong not to. I...don't want to forget him. He deserves m-more than that...especially since--

[can't quite finish that thought, but looks intensely guilty]

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[betterthanthen]

[oh screw ninja ways. the girl needs a hug and Sakura is hugging] You won't forget him, I know it. He would like it better if you remembered him and smiled, don't you think?

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[medic_plz]

[and the hugging is very appreciated, and is unhesitantly reciprocated (i.e. *CLINGS* XD)]

Y-yes...he would... [presses her face against Sakura's shoulder and makes an odd noise, something caught between a chuckle and a choke] He--he tried to smile through it all until the end...

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[betterthanthen]

[hair petting] I know someone who'd do that too...for the sake of saving who he loves...

[sighs] To have to complete an operation like that at your age...

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[medic_plz]

[still clinging a bit, thankful for the sisterly comfort, though she's ready to let go and move away the instant Sakura's body language indicates that she wants space]

[sniffs, her voice a little more steady] The operation was the easiest part...it--it was hard, especially parts of it, but...once I focused everything on it and closed out the rest of what was happening... A-and then I was so worried that I hadn't done it right--Kakashi was unconscious for so long, I was so afraid that I-- [realises that she's babbling and abruptly goes silent]

[swallows hard and mumbles a moment later] ...The hard part was...l-leaving him.

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[betterthanthen]

[heartbreaks for the girl, squeezes tighter] I know...I know...

...You were a brave girl, Rin-chan. An amazing ninja.

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[medic_plz]

[closes her eyes more tightly and hugs back, for now not caring how weak or ridiculous or anything it makes her look or feel]

Th-thank you, Sakura-senpai...

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[betterthanthen]

...wanna get out of here?

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[medic_plz]

[sniffs again, finally pulling back and giving Sakura a watery smile]

...Maybe in a little bit. I think...I just need a little longer here first.

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[betterthanthen]

...How long has it been for you, since it happened?