86; Attempt

[medic_assistant]

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[10thdiv_haineko]

.... I'm alright. Tired all the time, but that's from little sleep. I don't think I've slept a full night since....

I've been told I'm wallowing.

..... are you alright?

[medic_assistant]

... I drug myself.

I haven't been told that I am, but... ha... I know I am.

... Going?

[10thdiv_haineko]

I'm thinking of doing the same thing. I don't want to dream...

... do they really expect anything else?

I suppose that's the best we can deal with right now.

[medic_assistant]

... It helps. I know I wouldn't be sleeping like I should if I wasn't inducing it.

I... would rather they be upset with me and tell me to stop wallowing, really.

[10thdiv_haineko]

My captain worries about me, but.... Gin hardly talks to me.

Really? I'm ready to slice the next one that tells me that. I'm... tired of it.

[medic_assistant]

... He needs as much time as you.

I know it means they care... that they want to see me happy again, instead of sad.

[private]

[10thdiv_haineko]

That's why I'm always smiling around everyone. No one sees me upset. I make sure of it. That way, they think I'm myself again...

I'm even going out with friends tonight, if... I can bring myself to leave the house.

Re: [private]

[medic_assistant]

I think, if they know you, they'll be able to tell.

You should go. I'm going to go take a walk myself.

Re: [private]

[10thdiv_haineko]

... they don't know me very well, then. I think most of them are buying it.

Come with us.

Re: [private]

[medic_assistant]

... Either that, or they want to believe you. Or not upset you by saying it.

No, no, you go have fun, Rangiku. I'm going to stretch my legs and take a walk.