FUCK
I'm sick of being "too" something for everybody.
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I really do try to be polite and accommodating and 'tamed' when I'm interacting with other people.
But sometimes I feel like I'm being asked to dam a waterfall, you know?
Eventually, water erodes everything.
Like most of my relationships, romantic or otherwise, throughout my life.
And yes, I realize that if it's an ongoing pattern, then I'm the one who should do the changing. Which I HAVE, in a huge way, since I was young. I'm no longer 'in your face' but quietly determined. But, seriously, I feel I've reached my limit in compromising - what hollow shell would be left of my innermost self, my integral nature, if I gave up my passion?
I repeat: FUCK.
::whiny rant ended for now::
blunt
open
confident
independent
radical
adventurous
sexual
intense
I really do try to be polite and accommodating and 'tamed' when I'm interacting with other people.
But sometimes I feel like I'm being asked to dam a waterfall, you know?
Eventually, water erodes everything.
Like most of my relationships, romantic or otherwise, throughout my life.
And yes, I realize that if it's an ongoing pattern, then I'm the one who should do the changing. Which I HAVE, in a huge way, since I was young. I'm no longer 'in your face' but quietly determined. But, seriously, I feel I've reached my limit in compromising - what hollow shell would be left of my innermost self, my integral nature, if I gave up my passion?
I repeat: FUCK.
::whiny rant ended for now::