Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense that I may never find the strength to change how
hopeless we've become
It feels like the summer again... only it feels like the end of summer when I was miserable. Everyone I thought I didnt want back in my life is. Im not sure why my head is screwed on as backwards as it is. THe last couple of months have been so on and off for me. I thougt I lost two of my best friends. I did for a while. I am so lost right now. I am at ends with everything all at the same time. School... Friends...Family...Boyfriend...Work...someone just end it for me.
I appreciate those of you who were there for me Friday night. I love you Alexis for putting up with far more bullshit than u really should have that night. You realize how special you are when you least expect it.
I was sitting with my Dad on Friday night and I said something that I never thought I'd say. "Its really upsetting when you've fucked up so many things, that you can actually consider yourself a fuck-up"
I want to escape all of this... I want to breathe again....
I WANT OUT
It feels like the summer again... only it feels like the end of summer when I was miserable. Everyone I thought I didnt want back in my life is. Im not sure why my head is screwed on as backwards as it is. THe last couple of months have been so on and off for me. I thougt I lost two of my best friends. I did for a while. I am so lost right now. I am at ends with everything all at the same time. School... Friends...Family...Boyfriend...Work...someone just end it for me.
I appreciate those of you who were there for me Friday night. I love you Alexis for putting up with far more bullshit than u really should have that night. You realize how special you are when you least expect it.
I was sitting with my Dad on Friday night and I said something that I never thought I'd say. "Its really upsetting when you've fucked up so many things, that you can actually consider yourself a fuck-up"
I want to escape all of this... I want to breathe again....
I WANT OUT