Plain as day. and here's the update..
"I will treat u well, my sweet angel, so help me jesus."
~tired of it. i can't relate.^^
so i wish i knew what was going on with me bc i dont kno and i dont kno what i want.. and nobodys here to help.
i hate this all and i cant b fooled no matter what. my throat hurts and i rele cant win.
yesterday was a great day. i hung out with pple that arent in the norm. i <3 kevin and we TOTALLY made out. lol (trog dor!) oh and my wierd beowulf cries in the costume (smoking a cigarette) haha. i still have yet to ask my dad about going on the quads but i swear it'll b kick ass.
im tryin to figure out what it is i'm suppose to do with the plate i was dished out. theres sumthin specifically i think i should do but i'm not absolutely positive so i dont think im gonna tell...
i havent tlked to my family members today. not full conversations anyway. the only way im writing this is bc NOONE is home. bc they leave and dont tell me where they r going. last nite i felt ignored so today im doing it rite bak to them. especially my mom. even though today we r going to celebrate my moms raise from work, i dont care.
last nite i said mom, phone. and she didnt reply and i was like RIte by her so i figure hmm, maybe she fell asleep..? so i look at her n she just ignored me so i go mom, PHone.. and she looks at me and takes it bc im rite on her face.. im like yea fuck u too. i felt ignored. and i think thats what it is that truly gets to me bc i had this overwhelming feeling of disgust n i just didnt wanna tlk to them. she apologized after church. i walked on. she said "forgiven?" and i stared straight ahead. im still making up my mind if she is.
yea. i've been havin thoughts of so much and its a lot believe me so i decided to spill sum over here .
i'll see u in skool or sumthin. u can comment if you'd like, though i doubt it.
~tired of it. i can't relate.^^
so i wish i knew what was going on with me bc i dont kno and i dont kno what i want.. and nobodys here to help.
i hate this all and i cant b fooled no matter what. my throat hurts and i rele cant win.
yesterday was a great day. i hung out with pple that arent in the norm. i <3 kevin and we TOTALLY made out. lol (trog dor!) oh and my wierd beowulf cries in the costume (smoking a cigarette) haha. i still have yet to ask my dad about going on the quads but i swear it'll b kick ass.
im tryin to figure out what it is i'm suppose to do with the plate i was dished out. theres sumthin specifically i think i should do but i'm not absolutely positive so i dont think im gonna tell...
i havent tlked to my family members today. not full conversations anyway. the only way im writing this is bc NOONE is home. bc they leave and dont tell me where they r going. last nite i felt ignored so today im doing it rite bak to them. especially my mom. even though today we r going to celebrate my moms raise from work, i dont care.
last nite i said mom, phone. and she didnt reply and i was like RIte by her so i figure hmm, maybe she fell asleep..? so i look at her n she just ignored me so i go mom, PHone.. and she looks at me and takes it bc im rite on her face.. im like yea fuck u too. i felt ignored. and i think thats what it is that truly gets to me bc i had this overwhelming feeling of disgust n i just didnt wanna tlk to them. she apologized after church. i walked on. she said "forgiven?" and i stared straight ahead. im still making up my mind if she is.
yea. i've been havin thoughts of so much and its a lot believe me so i decided to spill sum over here .
i'll see u in skool or sumthin. u can comment if you'd like, though i doubt it.