truth
b/c i still love and care about you enough to wait for you to decide if you want to truely be with me. you talk about that type of a g/f. true i wanted to know you more by wanting you to open up. but i never honestly force it onto you. yeah i mention it alot. i knew it would take time and even now i still wait for you to do that. i knew everything would but i never tried rushing you into anything but being with me in person atleast for one day. told you before i will always be right here with my hand out waiting for you to grab ahold. that still stands as of today as of right now it still in affect. go ahead tell me to move on again live a life. this whole year been hell. on both of us. alot there is bad we have said to each other how selfish we both been. not even bother to stick as friends or even care to each others needs. and about joel or joe who ever it was. honestly you wanna know why i even asked about you 2? jealousy. there you go. i was jealous. i wanted to be with you. and i really can't stand someone else to have you. your too special of a person. one of a kind. figured for the past year i hide everything through anger but that only hurt more. you can't even understand how i even feel. but hey i get 2 strikes and i'm out of the game for good and i gave you so many and still allowing you to have more. just when you feel comfortable and ready you let me know. that probably be never but i can still keep my dreams hopes and faith. even if they cause me to go atleast i went out on looking forward to having something than nothing right? but i believe you still wish to be with me but don't wanna say it and that is understanding. although you give it away when you leave me messages saying i miss you and i love you and you had something to ask me but you changed your mind. you can speak whatever is on your mind to me. you should know that for a fact. always there for ya. and as for you there for me you already are and always have been just not in person.