my thoughts
i dunno where they come from
some scare me
some delight me
some tantalize me
some freak me the fuck out
i think about death alot, not me dying just death
i think about how different people have different effects on different people
and teh types of people
and the wayy people are
and what makes them that way
and how they react to things no other way but the way they would do it
and i thinkt aht my birthday is coming up soon
and how i just wanna be happy for my birthday
i wanna go the whole day smilinng
thats all i want
i dont want any presents
and i think about how you cant measure happiness
and how we are all looking for this happy
this certain little happy that sparks our hearts and sets our minds on fire
its always different for different people
but its kinda the same too
most people want love or friendship
most people want thier biggest desires whether it be succeding in something they love or jus tplain reaching thier goal
i dunno what my happy is
i wanna find my happy
i wanna grab hold of it
and strangle it till its unconcious
and then make it mine forever
but then i think
if i do fine my happy
and i get everything i wanted
then WHAT will we be searching for
what will we bee looking forward too
what will we be always trying to achieve
soo is it this horse race that never stops
and it never seems to get shorter
or is there a light at the end of the tunnel
somewhere
soemtime
some place
i just wanna know if happy can be sustained
Of course it can.
i dunno
: im scared
im terrified actuall
You just gotta go with it. And when like throws punches at you you just gotta laugh it all
: thats really hard to do and easy to say
thats what everyone says
im talking about
dealing with it, and your quest my quest eveyrones quest
its funny to think about
we all have these paths
all different
but intersecting
we dont know when they are gonna end
or who they will combine with
but they are there
they are the invisible paths that keep us going
and keep us wanting
and keep us waiting
i dunno
im done throwing up my thoughts
And you're scared that maybe when you reach your path and happiness you won't be able to keep it?
no no
im not even saying that
im just scared in general
these thoughts scare me cause i dont know where they come from
im ready to find my happiness
im just confused on the whole process
im not looking for answers
im just simply wondering and thinking and hoping
Sometimes you just gotta let go ya know? And think about it. If someones constantly thinking about being happy, they're constantly realizing how unhappy they really are. But if you just let go and not worry about finding happiness. You forget your unhappiness