What Im Looking for.
This is what Im looking for. Someone not to tell me who I need or what I need. Someone not to pressure me into something I do not want to do. Pain is what i feel from this pressure. I see no good in the decision. Go do your hurtful things to one another. I no longer will be apart of it. See this. See this bloody wrist. Oh yes I did this for you. See this. See these cold tears running down my face. Yes I cry these for what you have done to me. Pain. See the pain. This is what I am no longer looking for. Remember I am leaving. Sure you may say you are to but Im leaving for good. Never to return and never to think of you again. All of you are useless matter in my minds. Nothing you do or say can change my mind how I feel. I realize this. What Im looking for is not you. Nor is it him. BUT it is that over there in the distance. See that. That is my heart over that hill. There over that hill is my whole heart in the hands of my lover. My lover and my passion. What keeps me alive cause I know one day i will go over that hill and see him. See that's what Im looking for. Him in that distance in my future. Especially in my dreams. THAT MAN! is who I seek.